Kimi Wa Ore No Hikari

real meaning of tiredness

2009-12-04T11:46:00.002+08:00

hey

like finally, i have no school today. sigh. its really no joke when you decide to work and study at the same time. really. its really(1000000x) tiring. Seriously!!!!~
to those who intend to do so, think carefully. you really need a great deal of motivation to go school.
its really hard for me as i have friends to go out with every week. sometimes, i wish to stay home to rest but there are other problems.this is the time having own house is better. but hey, im only soo young to think about it. i apologize to all my friends if i have change a little and not the usually crazy/belo me. im just tired. really. hope you understand. but i'll try my best to not keep quiet.

this feeling of depression is really taking a toll on me. i have no idea why i am feeling as such (if you are wondering,i really dont know). its just a feeling. everything about you, you feel depress about. maybe the tiredness could be the cause of such feeling but who knows.

anyway, i have lots of things i want to do but seriously no time. New Moon is out and i HAVE NOT watch it yet. how can that be right? im sooo looking forward to it and here i am. -___-"
Couple's Retreat is another show i really want to know the ending of the show. its interesting, at least to me. read the newspaper, somerset shopping mall is up. with this schedule of mine, i wonder when will i ever get to enjoy myself without having the tired feeling. heard Ninja's Assasin is good but im not into in right now. now, im into this drama IRIS. same concept i guess but in terms of the actor, yeah IRIS is better.(way better,no offence.its a bias comment.if you know what i mean.)

HECTIC!!!!~

2009-11-30T11:52:00.003+08:00

hey

this week is going to be hectic for me. i have school almost everyday except for friday. OMG!!!!~ Madness!!!!~

Medical microbiology today.
Developing professional skill II tomorrow.
Immunology Wednesday
DSP II L2 Thursday

WAH!!!!~

just have to persevere i guess. after that, i have a degree.
anw, all this strees-ing things i manage to like update myself with some BIG BANG stuff.... especially T.O.P!!!!~

i was watching the drama on Sunday when i came across this song in the scene. i was like "eh, tt sound like taeyang... eh GD... T.O.P !!!!!~ omg!!! wad song is this?" i inanely ask my bro. HAHAH!! what a thing to ask.. Korean song --> brother??? LOL!!!~ he --> indon song then correct... hahaha KOREAN song... LOL!!! so i effortfully go search up and manage to find the song.

i like the beat... its soooo nice... its sooo addictive..

i like the part when TOP sang
"Shimmy, shimmy yo
1,2 steps, action
mission complete"
its sooo "sick"... if you know what i mean. LOL!!!!

well, the word hallelujah was kinda -_-"
but the song had nuffin to do with the word. the song was about the drama.

Taeyang]
Hallelujah, I'm falling, I'm falling, falling
Within those collapsed buildings (yeah)
Hallelujah (yes) I'm falling (yes), I'm falling, falling

GD]
Shimmy, shimmy yo
1,2 steps, action
mission complete
no doubt

GD]
Those empty streets at dawn
I'm a special agent but I still failed
I only move by the commands and I am that type of soldier
Don't touch me
Big Bang is a dynamite
Boom! Throwaway your life along with the sound
Thumbs up for finishing the mission
Love is a luxury for people like us
Coldblooded and zero emotions, that's the rule.

TOP]
That was a strong drink and now the memories are deleted
Today's allies becomes tomorrow's foes
Right under my nose there's trust and betrayal
Then there's the cold question
Don't ask me, test me, just blast it!
Why can't I have a normal life
Why can't I have you, it's too late for me
because I lost the control and that's my fate.
And I can't guarantee it 24/7

Taeyang]
Hallelujah, I'm falling, I'm falling, falling
Within those collapsed buildings there's (TOP in the building!),
Hallelujah (yes) I’m falling (yes), I’m falling, falling

GD]
Shimmy, shimmy yo
1,2 steps, action
mission complete

TOP]
Gunshot echoes but at the same time
Papers of life goes swoosh like the wind
I snatch everything away like a poker game
Then I want to regain my power back with my pokerface
Son, yo! If you can't avoid it then enjoy it
Hide your beating heart and breath
It's not all or nothing, so go ahead and call on it
I'm the man TOP, go on and stop.

GD]
Like a lonely hyena searching for a prey
If you are expecting for adequate then you better shut up and go to heller
With that half baked trap, catch me if you can
I will mess around with your head on the stand
we so fly, goodbye my fellas
burn those memories in the fire
Get careless then there will a gun aimed at you

Taeyang]
Hallelujah, I'm falling, I'm falling, falling
Within those collapsed building there's (GD in the building!),
Hallelujah (yes) I'm falling (yes), I'm falling, falling

GD]
Shimmy, shimmy yo
1,2 steps, action
mission complete
no doubt

Taeyang]
I scream then I pray for plain truth
and off to the sky I go

The waves of miracle pushes
and carries me then it looses me.

Hallelujah, I'm falling, I'm falling, falling
Within those collapsed buildings there's (Taeyang in the building!),
Hallelujah (yes) I'm falling (yes), I'm falling, falling

GD]
Shimmy, shimmy yo
1,2 steps, action
mission complete
no doubt

credits:
wanderlove @ soompi [Romanize Lyrics]
BKJSuh @ soompi [Translations]
Source: http://music.mnet.com/ArtistAlbum/AlbumInf...?AlbumID=185613

apart from that, i came across taeyang singles

WHERE YOU AT

this song is super nice especially the where u at part... NICE!!!! well, if im not wrong, the song is about teayang finding his girl and he will be there or something. wow, if only its me. *daydreaming* LOL!!!~

Translations

I even don't know your name, girl
but I will get you somehow
just got let me know where you at
cuz your man's coming

It's as if you know me just from the first glance
When I saw that familiar smile of yours
My footsteps stopped as well

baby,
Time flies by with a blink of an eye
But I remember those feelings from that moment
Anyhow it feels insecure
So can I try it again

When I turn around to see you again
You are only getting farther

Day n Night
High n Low
Today I am on this spot again
so I can search for you

I just wanna know
where u at
where u at
where u at

I just wanna know if you feel the same, (Where u at? Where u at?)
Please tell me right now
So I can start my love
I just wanna know if you feel the same, (Where u at? Where u at?)
where u at, girl

I just wanna know
where u at
where u at
where u at

Someday when I am called
You will notice that I am already standing beside you

It's as if you understand my loneliness
Those expressions of yours is unforgettable
You know how I feel

Uh, then I wake up in my zone
Blink twice n you are gone

Perhaps you are having a hard time like I'm
If this cold world
Collides and tires you out
Please wait until I can meet you

No matter how much I run to find you
You are only getting farther

Day n Night
High n Low
As usual, today I am
Over the skies and shouting towards your path

I just wanna know
where u at
where u at
where u at

Please tell me right now
So my love can start
where u at, girl

I just wanna know
where u at
where u at
where u at

Someday when I am called
You will notice that I am already standing beside you

Let me break this down
Somewhere today
You, who might be listening to this song
I would like to say that I'll promise you right now that
You were meant for me, so I will be there for you

I just wanna know where u at
where u at
where u at
where u at

Tell me right now
So my love can start

I just wanna know
where u at
where u at
where u at

Someday when I am called
You will notice that I am already standing beside you
I will be standing here....

credits: BKJSuh @ soompi
WEDDING DRESS

this is another song. SUPER sad... OMG!!!! i mean you have been together for quite sometime and you are afraid to express you love towards her. in the end, your close friend propose to YOUR girl what do you feel??? omg, its really sad and unforgiving towards yourself.

here is a message to guys out there who is shy to express themselves.
if you love someone and you are shy or feels that expressing your love to someone you love is "uncool"??? think again, would you rather sacrifice your pride or the person you love? you can only love one person in your entire life. can you bear see her with someone else? for your pride,i mean you will find it worthwhile having to love and be love when you sacrifice it. i mean,you might look silly or talk a little funny when you are nervous or hiding something, we are not going to eat you or be harsh on you. all we can do is laugh a little but not to make you feel bad, just amaze to see the other side or you that we never see before and we do appreciate. when you look back, you will laugh at yourself too, trust me. but hey its an experience to talk about when you are together.so guys, just go for it if you think in your heart she is the right one for you. =)
all the best.

Big Bang

2009-11-26T10:48:00.001+08:00

声をきかせて - Let Me Hear Your Voice

na na na na na oh! oh~
sa ra ki ma de no a me wa mo u a ga te
a su fa ru to ta da yo u ma chi no ni yo
ne so chi mo mu ha re te ru yo ne
ni shi ka ra ka i fu ku su ru te
a sa wa ni ga te na ki mi da ka ra ne
ma in ichi chan o to o ki ra re te ru ka i
so na ko to i ma da ni shi in pa i shi te ru yo

hi ro ga ru so ra wa sou ji yu u de
na ni mo ka wa te na i ke re do
to na ri ni i ma wa ta da ta da ki mi ga i na i da ke

ko we o ki ka se te
su na o ni na re ba ki to
wa ka ri wa e ru ha zu sa
ko ko ro wo hi ra i te
ko we wo ki ka se te wa ru i te ki ta mi chi wa
bo ku ta chi ni to te ki to
ta i se tsu na STEP su sa
so no mi ra i ye no

kimi to ha ji me te de a ta no wa sou
cho u do i ma ku ra i no ki set su da ta ne
rai to wa pu shi ta ma chi na mi ga
ki re i ni ka ga ya i te a
na ki mu shi na ki mi wa a re ka ra yo ku
bo ku no ka ta ni o de ko wo no ke te
na i te ta ne so no no u mo ri i
mu sho ni fu re ta ku na ru

nin wa da re de mo so re zo re ni
na ya mi wo da ka e te i ki ru ko wa re
sou na ko ko ro wo hi shi ni da ki shi me te

ko e wo ki ka se te
ya sa shi ku nai ba mo to
a i shi a e ru ha zue sa
me wo so ra sa na i de
ko e wo ki ka se te
ka ra mi tsu ku fu an mo
sa bi shi sa mo ko e te yo ko
u i ma no ko no kimi mo chi ga
ki zu na ni na ru Yo Since you went away hasn't been
the same In my heart all I got is pain Could it be
that I played a game to lose you, I can't maintain
Sunlight moonlight you lit my life realize in the night while
love shines bright Cant let you go we're meant forever
baby let me know This past without you, Can't forget you
Letting me be the cloud hanging above me Raining on
me missing you touch Nights get long and it's hard
to clutch We're apart breaks my heart Its all for the
best girl you're my world In time my love unfolds
He will then wait for you girl

ko we o ki ka se te
su na o ni na re ba ki to
wa ka ri a e ru ha zu sa
ko ko ro wo hi ra i te
ko we wo ki ka se te
a ru i te ki ta mi chi wa
bo ku ta chi ni to te ki to
ta i set su na STEP su sa
so no mi rai he no

Credits: Amazesing@Youtube

Translation :

The rain just now has stopped
The smell of asphalt is floating around the city
Hey, over there too, the weather is fine already right?
For the weather has cleared up from the west
Since youre not a morning person
Everyday, will you be able to wake up properly?
Im still worried about things like that

The spreading sky, the freedom
Although neither of them has changed
Right now, just that its only just that you are not by my side

Let me hear your voice
If we become honest, surely
Well be able to understand each other
Please open your heart
Let me hear your voice
The path we have come is, for us, definitely
An important STEP to that future

The first time I met you was
Around this season right?
The light up street was
Glowing beautifully
The crybaby-you, from that time on, often
Laid your forehead on my shoulder
You were crying right? That extreme warmth
From your touch on my shoulder

Everyone lives, carrying his own worry
Desperately holding his broken heart

Let me hear you voice
If we become more kind
Well be able to love each other
Dont turn away from my eyes
Let me hear your voice
Lets get over those entwined anxieties and loneliness
The feelings of this moment become our bond

Yeah, Since you went away hasnt been the same
In my heart all I got is pain
Could it be that I played a game to lose you, I cant maintain
Sunlight moonlight you lit my life realize in the night
while love shines bright
Cant let you go were meant forever baby let me know

This past without you, Cant forget you
Letting me be the cloud hanging above me
Raining on me missing you touch
Nights get long and its hard to clutch
Were apart breaks my heart
Its all for the best girl youre my world
In time my love unfurls
He will then wait for you girl

Let me hear your voice
If we become honest, surely
Well be able to understand each other
Please open your heart
Let me hear your voice
The path we have come is, for us, surely
An important STEP to that future

Source : iBigbang Fansite
Credits to : alee@iBigbang Fansite & Aznrepublic12@Youtube
Thanks to : CarepJan & YGentertainment

SUPER PISSSSSSSSSSSSSEDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-26T09:36:00.003+08:00

i really cant tolerated people not doing their work properly. i mean come on, if you have a problem fix it right?? i was given a final reminder for parking illegally. come on!!!! i wouldnt do that unless im force to!!! even if i park illegally, i dont OBSTRUCT the freaking walkway!!!! super pissed!!! come on give me a break!!! i was soooo UNSATISFIED i went to the the security office and created an uproar.. HAHAHA! i wish!!! i just came there with the choice of words that are normal but with an aggresive tone. lucky this bugger manage to give suggestion if he said go park somewhere, i soooo going to explode!!! i mean by nature im a nice person but when you suggest me STUPID/ILLOGICAL/NO BENEFIT idea you are really asking for it!!!! lucky he suggest if there is really no parking, write a note and leave a contact no. for them to call. it sounds logical and at least he made an effort to help. THANK GOD!!!!

i mean come on, there are complains regarding this before. there was this lady riding super four she was sooo mad she even complain. there is a history of complains and you are not doing anything! come on!!!! what the F*^$ are you doing!!!! i mean you are a PATHETIC SECURITY GUARD go move your LAZY BIG LIPID-FILLED ASS to work. do some good/WORK!!!!

SOOOOOOO PISSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-25T12:07:00.003+08:00

hey

2nd day of school today. immunology. im exhausted actually,but must go on.
the 1st day was okay, it was a little awkward.we are used to laptop and now books and pen??? i even forgot how to take down notes. LOL!!!~

anw, i came across this song, Two is Better than One by Boys like girls ft Taylor swift..

nice song, nice lyrics. but this video is great. the person actually put pictures that reflects the song which was brilliant. it makes you appreciate love more. the song itself made an impact,adding the pics was like icing on the cake. but seriously, to those who are attached,do appreciate your love ones. you never know when it might be over.

woohooo!!!~ personalise pic!!!

2009-11-23T12:18:00.000+08:00

HEY HEY HEY!!!~

omg! im excited that im back, like finally i have some spare time to actually blog again!!!~

weehoo!!!

anw, personalise pic, my edition... cool shucks!!!~

LOL!!!~ beginner still..

yea.. i really hope i can blog again.

anw, 2dae i officially start school!!!~ weee!!!~ oh yea, this semester i only have like 2 modules. immunology and medical microbiology. which i studied before.forgot one more module, developing professional skill 2.. hahah i wonder wad they do in dps1.. LOL!!! nevertheless... my hectic life starts today!!!~

It was a blast!!!~

2009-01-25T13:51:00.005+08:00

Hey Hey Hey!!!~

Saturday, which was yesterday, had my Graduation High Tea at Megu, Singapore Flyer.
Well, my day started out waking up and went to my brother's house at Pasir Ris. My sister-in-law helping me do my hair and make-up. LOL!!!~
Me, make-up? Yeap. =)
At her house there were her sister's family and I felt a little awkward but hey, she's my sis too as for now.

OMG, I HAVE A SISTER!!!~ LOL!!!~

At around 12.30pm, started to dress up and sis help me apply my make-up and did something to my hair.
After much style, decide that i just wear hairband.LOL!!!~
Took the cab to Singapore Flyer and meet Yusra and Pedos upon arrival.
Took lots of pics and try enjoy the party.

I made Yusra birthday gift. I didnt know what to get her for her birthday.
Then, i had a flash back at the time we browse through book at Kinokuniya, Bugis.
"The Gift of Nothing is everything"
Not that i didnt buy her anything, instead i made her something. Since its her 20th Birthday, i made her 20 origami, 5 hearts, 5 cranes, 5 butterfly and 5 fishes. Moreover, i had this small bottle with her name and mine on it. I really hope she liked it.

Back to the party, Pedos and myself planned a birthday surprised for her. One of the party occasion was a birthday celebration. The MC called out the names of the birthday people and she cant believe her name was called. She kept asking me "Did they call my name? You sure?"
OMG, it was hilarious!!!~
She was sooo paisey that she cant speak properly. LOL!!!~
After the birthday singing and all and she had settled down, one of the facilitator was singing "Right Here Waiting for You" and we sang a bit and I gave her the present. She went "OMG!!!~ "
i think she was sooo touch that she wanted to cry then i told her "Nice right, the song and everything? LOL!!!~" She was speechless and hug me. When she opened it and read the small card that i wrote "The Gift of Nothing" She went was like "OMG!!!~" i wonder how many omg she said that day!!!~ It was a blast!!!!~

After the whole event ended. We went our seperate ways. Yusra had to be early as she is celebrating her birthday with her family. Pedos, well, sent ehem2 home. Me, meet ashik, bala, asmin and jasman and spent the whole night catching up...

Sigh. Im so going to miss them lots...

This is a special message for Yusra and Firdaus.
Guys!!!~ Thanks for making my RP learning journey a memorable one.
I really appreciate your companionship and the times we hangout together.
I'll never forget them. This wouldnt be the last for us, i hope. Do keep in touch.
Yusra - the trip to NUH, LOL!!!~ Was really amazing. I got lost having my bestie around. You were soo brave even though you didnt know where we were. I was soo panicky that i was afraid i couldnt get us there. Its been amazing even though i teared. LOL!!~
Oh, not forgetting our karaoke session only the 2 of us. LOL!!!~
Firdaus - you never fail to make us laugh in class with your crazy acts/joke. everytime with you would always be fun and laughter. its funny when you "fight" with yusra because a plant life is in danger. LOL!!!~ It get smashed to be exact. LOL!!!~
Lets sing PUSPA and I Kissed a Girl together!!!~

<3 mary

FINALE!!!~

2009-01-22T17:36:00.007+08:00

HEY HEY HEY!!!~

OMG!!!~
Its like finally here.
When you know that tomorrow is a new day.
No more 14/16 week class, RJ, Quiz, Peer/Self Evaluation and UT!!!~

Look at what I wrote for my quiz!!!~ LOL!!!~

Today's class is Patient Care under Betsy!!!~
What we did the whole day???

1st meeting - Class resume as normal. With our PDT.

1st Breakout - Yusra and myself were playing spot the difference at Facebook while thinking of what to do for Presentation.
Some games popped - Wheel of fortune??? Telephone number game??? and finally we decided
TREASURE HUNT!!!~ LOL!!!~
Yusra and myself were thinking of the places that we wanted to hide our clue.
Firdaus and Clarice were thinking of the questions to answer for the quiz.
By 1st breakout, we were done with all that.
Yusra accompanied me to Civic to but Tom Yam Fishballs for the class party!!!~
At the same time, the class was preparing for Yusra birthday surprise.

2nd meeting - We came back with the balls and Betsy gift (Starbuck cup and TEA!!!~)
When we came back, everything was normal except that Clarice was missing.
Betsy distracted Yusra for awhile when Clarice enter the door we started to sing Birthday song to Yusra loudly!!!~
She was sooo shocked!!!~ Her face had this sign "What's going on???" LOL!!!~ HILARIOUS!!!~

2nd breakout and 3rd meeting - Lots of eating and eating!!!~ we played games design by each team. Charade and Broken Tv game. LOL!!!~ The day ended well, lots of hugs and misses!!!~
=...)

Top 3 people I'm going to miss in class...
Yusra
Firdaus
Zahirah

Part of RJ question: Are you ready to step into the real working world or is this a stepping stone to your higher education?
Am I ready? Well, to be honest, I’m not. I felt that my
school life has not ended yet. I always felt that
tomorrow there is going to be another day. However, as
for today, there isn’t. Tomorrow is a new day and a
beginning of a new life. It is going to take me sometime
to adapt to the fact that I’ve done with my diploma.

Pixy!!!~

* Patient Care, Betsy!!!~

* Haematology, Sahana!!!~

* Diagnostic Imaging

And of course Firdaus and his crazy-ness

as life goes on...

2009-01-10T20:42:00.003+08:00

hey

its been awhile. happened to be drastically free today. i guess im the type that cant be free.
graduation nearing and im having mixed feeling.
happy that school is ending.
confused, afraid, unsure of what im going to do next.
local university would be my choice but having to be in a science course, it makes it harder.
private university would be ideal, only if my dad owns a bank.
overseas university would only happen if i have family members staying overseas.

*sigh*

whats left?
work...

hows life after FYP?

2008-11-29T20:30:00.002+08:00

HEY HEY HEY!!!!~

OMG!!!!~
I really cant believe that my year 3 life is ending.
FYP DONE!!!~ FINALLY!!!~
i felt soooo relieve that i had to take a step back thinking is it a dream or its reality?
no doubt it was real alright.

how was it?
well, it was better as compared to the previous.
the assessors were okay. cant really say if they are nice or anything coz you never know what they are thinking.
overall, it was all good.

what's next?
i guess, just have to attend class and UT.
and wednesday is officially an off day!!!!~
WEEHOO!!!~

been awhile

2008-11-23T20:13:00.005+08:00

HEY, HEY, HEY!!!~

its a sunday, tomorrow there is school. LOL!!!~
cant wait for graduation. on another hand, am afraid of what awaits me.
nevertheless, just look forward to it.

what i'm thinking right now?
FYP presentation. goodness!!!~
after this, i am totally going to enjoy my last few weeks of RP life.

had fun shopping with ashik!!!~
siao eh!!!~
he spent sooo much!!!~
crazy boy!!!~
action, got voucher from ZARA and GAP lei!!!~
what we did was went to bugis. walk around bugis street.
after that went, town. walk around takashima, wisma.
went to GAP and ZARA outlets. LOL!!!~
in the end, when to far east.
shop at SPIN-B, ashik's favourite shop!!!~ LOL!!!~
then, we had blizzard!!!~ weee!!!~
after sooooo much walking, literally alot of walking, we went home.
had fun shopping with him!!!~
how next week? LOL!!!~

RAYA!!!~

2008-10-14T23:10:00.004+08:00

hey hey hey!!!~

its raya and it wouldnt be complete if i dont put up raya pics!!!~
so yeah on sunday, 12/10/08 - secondary reuinite. LOL!!!~
we all went out as secondary classmates and friends. it was FUN!!!~
i miss listening to their crappy-ness during class

so yeah, at first there were only 12 of us;
raja, kathy (raja gf), rasuna, wan, mus, illy (mus gf), lokman (nur bf), nur, myself, akmal, ammar and fuad.

we meet at raja house. fuad was late.

some of the guys brought their bikes and i didnt. they insisted me to bring along but i had to pass. i was wearing baju kurung so its inappropriate.

the rest of us, in car drove by lokman.

after which, fee, kamal and zul came. not forgetting the infamous fattah.

snaps pics of nur and myself.

some of the funniest thing the guys did.

finally, there were 17 of us in total.

i might lose it all

2008-10-13T21:20:00.002+08:00

Monsoon - Tokio Hotel
Been listening to this song all over again. the chorus is the most meaningful.

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
Til' the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue

*Longing for a sunny day with beautiful flowers and rainbow.

Random
did you ever think that our lives is like a movie we watch?
we tend to anticipate what will in the end.
have you ever think about what will happen to you in the end?
its inevitable that one would be death.
apart from that, what would be the drama to your life?
to think of it, we cant say we are bad at acting, we are actors/actress to our own lives.

there is a saying, when you are troubled, god is speaking to you. its a test to you from him. however, dad told me that this test is much simpler than the ones he gave you...

Freedom.

feeling a lil lesby

2008-10-04T00:24:00.002+08:00

hey,

i have no idea why i want to watch The Search For The Next Doll. well, i didnt get the chance to watch it so i decide to watch in on youtube.
my favourite is Melissa R.
Shes gorgeous!!!~ HOT and NICE!!!~
i sound sooo lesbian i know but reallyif guys were to see her i think they drool.
i like her performance on episode2; her group sang, pon de replay
here is the clip. enjoy.
ohh and if you are wondering, shes the one with the white shorts.
3mins onwards. shes the 2nd group to perform.

infection

2008-09-25T21:31:00.005+08:00

hey,

it hasn't been a great week for me. it started out as a sore eye. due to my ignorant, i wore my contact lens and it lead to eye infection. furthermore, i am riding, the dust made my eye vulnerable. i honestly thought its sore eye. then i think again, how come there isn't any discharge after day 2 onwards. it became painful and itchy instead. sigh.

*its bad*

then again, when you thought you move a step forward, you actually move 3 steps backwards. why is it that hard. its good that you've move on. i guess im only running.

=...(

new found hotness

2008-09-22T22:46:00.001+08:00

UEDA!!!~ i dont know why but hes HOT!!~ the mysterious one.

watch this video. the ending, ueda shake his hip. OMG!!!~ HOTNESS!!!!~
*faint*

yamapi love

2008-09-22T21:59:00.003+08:00

ohh yeah,

i guess hes been the talk of the town. hate it when hes EXPOSE. ARGH!!!~ *shucks*
there is like a freggin huge poster of him at Cine. ARGH!!!~
*i wonder if they take it down, can i have it? Hmmm*

Oh well, yeah yeah yeah, the new movie starring YAMASHITA TOMOHISA, Kurosagi!!!~
every girl would know about him then by now. *sigh*
i wonder why i was sooo shy whenever i walk pass the poster. all the girls will like SCREAM!!!~ blablabla... i was like "shy" i dont understand why.

is this like goodbye to him? no!!~ cant be. forget it. maybe this is just a phase. lets just wait for it to fade. in the meantime, i can watch his concerts and MPV i took from my friend and enjoy. =))
calm myself down.

<3 yamapi

down mood

2008-09-22T21:24:00.002+08:00

Hey

something just made me want to find this song. its just a sudden urge and i am not sure what the trigger is. heard about Selena??? The movie played by Jennifer Lopez. i have no idea why but in one of Jennifer Lopez concert she tribute one of Selena song, I Could Fall in Love, i felt sooo touch.

*_I Could Fall In Love_*
I could lose my heart tonight
If you don't turn and walk away
'Cause the way I feel I might
Lose control and let you stay
'Cause I could take you in my arms
And never let go

CHORUS:
I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you

I can only wonder how
Touching you would make me feel
But if I take that chance right now
Tomorrow will you want me still
So I should keep this to myself
And never let you know

I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you
And I know it's not right
And I guess I should try
To do what I should do
But I could fall in love
fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you

So I should keep this to myself
And never let you know

(CHORUS)
i could fall in love with you, (i could fall in love with you)
i could fall in love with you

I could fall in love
I could fall in love with you
I could fall, fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you

This is the original singer, Selena.
Enjoy.

times i change blogskin

2008-09-11T17:23:00.003+08:00

hey,

i have no idea how many times i changed my blogskin. please bear with me. im soooo not good at this kinda thing. so yea, understandable. im KENTAL. LOL!!!~

anyway,
it's been awhile since i take picture of myself.
i realise i have lots of picture in group photo but not soo much of my individual photo.
shall update more. lets wait for raya then.

KAT-TUN fever, YAMAPI still the best

2008-09-06T16:59:00.005+08:00

hey

so yeah, on friday, haematology class i meet a new classmate. oh dear, i forget whats her name. yusra and myself call her kame fan. LOL!!!~ im the one that notice kame pic on her lappy. i told yusra about it and she screamed!!~ omg!!~ haha. so yeah she had a lot of all the japanese videos from kattun to news, kame to yamapi and all. LOL!!~ she showed us lots of videos and yeah, she do subbing!!!~ anyway, she gave us this kattun tour for us to watch. its really nice the tour. i dont know why but in KAT-TUN i have lost interest in KAME. i felt that hes "normal". like all the girls go after. somehow, i found that UEDA and JIN still my fav!!!~ ueda the quiet one. i dont know why he attracts me. the way he talks and sings makes me go *sigh*. worst, when he smiles!!!~ ARGH!!!~ MADNESS!!!~ i sound so ... HAHA!!!~ i like it when jin stick out his tongue and do his signature dance. LOL!!!~ ARGH!!!~ i can go crazy. well, cant beat yamapi though. especially the video daite senorita. LOL!!!~ nice chest!!!~ *sigh*

goodness, im fasting. HAHA!!!~ im sooo gonna stick to my new classmate not forgetting yusra though. LOL!!!~

anyway, as usual, yusra and myself, we are very random people. yusra for example, wore baju kurung yesterday. LOL!!!~ she look nice though. she wanted me to wear with her but she notice that i ride a bike so yeah. LOL!!!~ i told her i can wear half baju kurung mah. LOL!!!~ since yesterday lesson was a little simple as some of us took medical technology during year 2, we know the content of it. so yeah, yusra and myself had time and went to a rap mini showcase at TRCC studio. it was part of noise singapore. the featured rapper was our own singaporean FreakyZ!!!~ his showcase was not bad. really nice music he compose and his lyrics was about his life which was very interesting.

www.myspace.com/mrfreakyz <--- view his myspace and listen to his songs. i mean im not trying to promote him but we should support our own local people who really are talented.

<3 yamapi

always random

2008-09-02T21:00:00.002+08:00

hey

happened to came across a website stating about left and right brain. since i was bored, i decide to do the quiz.

http://www.blogthings.com/areyourightorleftbrainedquiz/
*just in case if some decide to do

Here is my result.
You Are 60% Left Brained, 40% Right Brained

Here is what i gather about Left and Right brain;

Left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

Right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

To think about it, i agree that i am more of left brained than right. one can never be either left brain or right. it works simultaneously only that one works more than the other.

so yeah, 2nd day of fasting. how am i feeling?
sick. im not sure why. i've been having this headache.
i have not been sleeping well. no idea why.
ohh and every time i wake up and sleep again, i will have different dream. if i wake up 3 times, i will have 3 different dreams and all of it are not linked.
one says i had a "major brain overhaul". LOL!!~

i FINALLY get to finish watching "Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants" online. the loading can simple kill me. anyway, its a nice show. now, im finding "Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2".
anyone has it? =)

tiredness

2008-09-01T17:13:00.001+08:00

hey

yesterday, i was exceptionally tired. i had no idea why im feeling like that. i worked from 10am to 6pm and immediately when i reached home i changed and landed on bed. it felt sooooo good. im clueless as to why i wasnt feeling feel. is it because of my eating??? have been eating nonsense this week instead of dieting. but heck, thought it would start a fresh when fasting.

so yeah, 1st day of fasting almost over. how does it feel like? great i guess. even though a little tired and of course hungry. but hey, its a sign that raya is coming. LOL!!!~ its not that. im just looking forward to the future. no idea why. you never know what is coming. sigh. just have to look forward.

=)

awesome-ness!!!~

2008-08-27T20:50:00.002+08:00

i just had to blog about today.
i had the best time of my life!!!~
SHOPPING!!!~

it wasnt plan at all. just happened to past by takashimaya and there is a SALE!!!~
SPORTS FAIR!!!~
OMG!!!~
they sell bags, shirts, shoes.
From Everlast, Converse, Kappa, Gola and etc.
I wanted to buy Everlast ladies jacket but it was not what i was looking for.
I am in need of bag and wanted a long sleeve tshirt.
In the end bought Kappa bag and an Everlast long sleeve tshirt.
Not forgetting, i was in need of shoes!!!~ Wanted to buy Lee Cooper pump shoe but in the end bought Everlast pump shoe!!!~

I felt sooo happy!!!~ Since all these were in my most wanted things to buy. I spent it all well!!!~ I feel great when i spent my money wisely. =)

after which, watch movie 4bia. at first, i thought there were no nice movie to watch. so yeah, played arcade for awhile and after which happened to come across 4bia. Its a ghost story. Viewers choice i think. so why not go ahead and watch it.

the show consists of 4 different shows. Even though they are not link, all of them are GREAT shows.

Happiness (Thai title: Ngao/Lonliness; directed by Youngyooth Thongkonthun) : A young woman, stuck in her apartment thanks to the cast on her leg, communicates with the outside world via cell phone and text messages. She begins receiving text messages from a stranger, who seems friendly enough, and there’s no reason for her to read between the lines when he mentions that he’s currently dwelling somewhere “cramped.” After sending the mysterious stranger her picture, things become spooky.

Tit for Tat (Directed by Paween Purikitpanya) : Imagine a childish payback like writing a joke about your friend's parents on the blackboard. Then imagine a payback of vocational schoolboys who curse people they hate on a deadly charm. Let's see how excruciating these curses will bring to the table and the bloody time is on to kills everyone who fact this event.

In The Middle (Directed by Banjong Pisanthanakun) : On a remote camping trip through a lonely jungle, four teenagers begin to tell ghost stories to entertain themselves. Eventually, the young men become frightened by their own stories and fight over who gets to sleep in the middle of the tent which they believe, is the safest and most secure spot to sleep...or so they think.

The Last Fright (Directed by Parkpoom Wongpoon) : Flight attendent Pim, goes aboard an airliner on a charter flight for the Princess of Khurkistan. What was supposed to be an ordinary flight turns into something tragic when the princess forms an allergic reaction to something she ate. After the royal house of Khurkistan requests that her body be sent back immediately for cremation, Pim (Chermarn Boonyasak) is required to remain on the plane and escort the body - the only passenger - for the return flight.

Some description of the four different shows. no doubt that all of the are the best but to me the most funniest is "In the Middle". i was laughing the whole time watching it. i was funny yet scary. i dont understand how these two different feeling can exist. haHA!!~ The scariest would be "The Last Fright". i wouldnt want to be in her situation. its the last thing you want. its sooooo scary!!!~ haHA!!!~ i recommend this show if you got no other great shows to watch. i would want to consider buyin a dvd. den can watch with the girlfriends if can. LOL!!!~

bye

2008-08-07T16:17:00.004+08:00

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

From: Mariah Carey
Album: E=MC2
Title: Bye Bye

happiness, no?

2008-08-06T18:01:00.002+08:00

hey,

here again with my random thought(s). i was just wondering, is it wrong for someone to chase for one's happiness.

its been awhile since i felt the true meaning of happiness. well, happiness can mean a lot of things. for me, i just want to be ME. not being someone im not. speaking of which, let me share something about me.

i freaked out when i get lost. seriously. once i tried to go town, i was nearly lost, but thanks to "my pillion", we managed to get to the place.

i teared for a moment, thats how freaked out i was. paranoid i must say.

im a perfectionist. cant deny that. whenever i do things, i make sure i dont screw it up, even though i had to do things i dont agree upon or dont like. if i screw it up, i get all cranky.

some might not understand, so when they bug me about stuff, i tend to express my anger out to them.
its just me. i just want the best not just a mere okay.

im friendly and nice but shy. if you get to know me better, i can be very fun. haHA. not trying to promote myself.

when i was in kindergarten, there is this fat guy. everyone like to bully him. saying hes fat and all. he was so lonely. he didnt even do anything harmful to deserve such treatment. one day, i decide to talk to him. it was incredible, i made him happy. he is really a nice guy. imagine if your kindergarten life is as such. you would be dreadful for the rest of your life, thinking why people like to pick on you just because you are fat. there are a lot of reason why someone is fat. dont blame them for being as such. no one is perfect. you can be beautiful, handsome, slim, muscular and etc. but think again, is your life perfect? having parents that love you, what about attitude wise, do you have a lot of friends or just friends that are there when times you are happy and disappear when you are in sadness. if you have all, im happy for you.

dont deal with false criticism well.

i know who i am and if someone were to falsely criticise me i get very personal. i get sooooo mad and can go berserk. i feel like punching the person's face but its just me that i tend to keep it to myself and let it out in tears. i dont know how to translate my anger into something healthy.

these are some things that i would like to share about me. if i can think of more, i shall share.

had gym training yesterday, was awesome but TIRING!
i understand a new meaning of tired. tired in terms of strength.
OMG!!!~ after an incline light run for 20mins, i had to tone up my legs and arms. had to carry some weights. not that hardcore heavy plates but just the normal 1kg dumbbell. after some sets of weight training for my arm and leg, i was tired, in terms of strength. i realise that i can actually run but not carry anymore weights. i was pushed abit as i wasnt following my diet. ate a lot of junk lately and had to face the consequences.

its hard to make everyone around you happy. all my life, i tried so hard to be a good friend. i guess its just the nature of being human. some who appreciate and others, i dont know how to put it to words. in a harsher tone, others who try to bring you down. not sure of what the reason is. you never understand what im going through and dont add salt to the wound by saying things that you dont understand. i guess life is not about making people around you happy.

i thought there was something special about you that is worth being with. im sorry.

settling down

2008-08-04T23:54:00.003+08:00

Hey!!!~

this is one random post that came out of my mind and i had to blog about it. recently, been going out with my girlfriends. its amazing how the conversation change from normal chatter-ation of HOT guys, to a more serious conversation on settling down.

"OMG, we are turning 20s and still no boyfriend"
"... i dont look for boyfriend, i look for husband"

these are some "interesting" phrases that came out of our serious conversation.

i was amazed that it didnt happened among the girls but also some GREAT guys. shall not mention names. HAHAH!!~ or shall i?!! Hmm...

To bala,
Im glad that you found her. im impress on how you overcome your uncertainty. just so you know, its not easy to get a girl to be comfortable, open, sincere, truthful yet you are still dating her. im sure you know how "beautiful" the feeling is. im happy for you and not to mention missing you too.

To ashik,
GET WELL SOON!!!~ lets spend more time together!!!~ GOD!!~ I miss you dreadfully. LOL!!!~ want to see you botak face!!` LOL!!!~

To helmi and akmal,
when are we going to hang out. its been eon years!!!~ MISS YOU GUYS LOTS!!!~

to my girlfriends (you know who you are),
LETS HANG OUT MORE!!!~ LOL!!!~

*hugs*

heart wrenching moment

2008-08-01T12:17:00.006+08:00

Hey hey hey!!!~

Tuesday, I experience a series of unfortunate events. I was suppose to fast but due to my miscalculation, i had to break my fast. for a first day, it is expected to experience cramps. usually, unbearable cramp comes once in 3-4 months. unfortunately, it had to be on tuesday. most of the time during 3rd meeting, i lie down at the pantry. was sooo unfortunate. my mistake, i took the panadol late and had to suffer a few hours of cramp - waiting for the drug to take effect.

it wasnt just the cramp. have you ever felt that you put in effort to at least achieve the minimum expectation? well, what if you dont get it, even you minimum expectation? how does it makes you feel? GOD!!!~ it made me feel so demoralise!!!` it really hit me hard!!!~ GOD!!!~ they didnt even specify why i deserve to get as such. ARGH!!!~

i took a step back and think again. was it my pms? or was it my feeling of bein a perfectionist? sigh.

took a day off on thursday, went out with the girls. made my day!!!~ ate, talk, talk, talk, walk, walk, talk, talk, talk, decide to pamper ourselves by doing a manicure and pedicure. i did manicure while 2 of them did pedicure. my nails are pink!!~ and its nice!!~ soooo HAPPY!!!~

*my beautiful nails!!!~

Since it was my cheat day, i decide to buy donut at donut factory!!!~

* the white one is my fav!!!~

* this is my fav. with dark choc filling!!!~

*it wouldnt be complete with BK fries!!!~

*and a hearty Coke Zero!!~

♥ more updates

2008-07-29T08:22:00.004+08:00

Morning!!!~

more updates!!!~ yesterday didnt have much time to update here are some things that happened.

GIRLS DAY OUT!!!~
- Tri, Syaza, Fadhilah and myself.

Syaza picked us up with her grandfather's car and we head off to have dinner at Bedok corner.

* The belated birthday girl.

* Fadhilah enjoying her food.

* I was fasting and had that to break my fast. The food came late. cant blame, it was a little crowded.

After the food, we talk a lot. Catch up with each other. Listen to Tri's random utter - ation and decide to bowl at Downtown East. We were on the waiting list as there were a lot of people bowling. From professionals to amateurs.

While waiting, we took pics.

* Tri and Fadhilah

* Syaza and myself

The wait was killing our precious time despite playing a rather funny game suggested by syaza while waiting. Fadhilah and myself have to be back home by 10pm. We decide to cancel the bowling and head to the ARCADE!!!~

* This is what we played.

* I swear this was not easy.

That was the outing with the girls. Apart from that, i had a fantastic outing with my classmate. It was a normal Tuesday. It was Histopathology and Cytology module and we were having our lab. After the lab, it was Yusra random chatter that lead us to talking about "ghost". LOL!!!~ The whole of 2nd breakout we talked about it. They were exchanging stories on their encounter with the thing. Some of us suggested to go to this haunted block at Woodlands after school.

Upon reaching the "haunted" block, we realised that the whole block was renovated and the lift is upgraded. It was not as scary as last year. the block is well decorated with singapore flag as national day is coming. we took the lift and when around the block to "inspect". conclusion, the block look normal. along the way we took pics, as usual.

* In the upgraded lift. even my lift is not that nice.

* since we realise that there is nothing scary about it, we made one up. LOL!!!~

* The eager people

♥ im back

2008-07-28T22:45:00.004+08:00

Hey hey hey!!!~

above are some of the latest thing i did. the invitational silat championship. participated in the artistic duo and won silver again for two consecutive years. its quite an achievement i must say being with my duo partner. i really must thank her for the support and never ending encouragement. most of all should thank my team for allowing me participate.

its been quite sometime i've been missing. lots of things happened. i will only leave it as a great memory. will always treasure and still am treasuring every bit of memory that i had.

reason for my disappearance is that im busy with meetings, trainings. but now, i've unofficial step down or in another way quit. i want to concentrate on my school grade and final year projects.

speaking of which G301 - DONE!!!~ Weee!!!~ Im sooo relieve when its over. ONE huge obstacle down. ONE more to GO!!!~ PP - DONE!!!~ CE points - DONE!!!~ just G302 left!!!~ oh and ONE more semester to go!!!~ its the majestic #1!!!~
in addition to that, it just gets scarier each passing day knowing that im graduating. for guys, they know where they are heading, NATIONAL SERVICE. for us girls, we either continue studying university or work. for me, im still uncertain. looking at my finance and my not that amazing grade, how can i go LOCAL university. ARGHH!!!~ lets not spoil the ohh-soo-cheerful mood.

random...

'school!!~

2007-09-18T13:44:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey!!!~

school started and my new class is W54B. From E3 to W5, East to West block. my 1st few friends i made was my 1st team mates for Molecular & Cell Biology, YuKi, Chris, Ariel & Illy. it was a good team. we talked alot all about random stuff and i really like it. we kinda like bonded well considering it was only our 1st time knowing each other. for my Immunology, i have YuKi & Illy (again), Bryan & Gina. i like our immunology faci. she very-the-talkative, in a good way. shes the pioneer of RP and shes back to facilitate. how great can it be, she understands us.

so yeah, im sooo bored right now. its like the 1st time im free during school as i've finish my work and not worried about the powerpoint. so let me be in my slack mood.

RANDOM
what is wrong with guys and decisions. is it that hard to make a decision???

you see, there is this ine type of guy who likes to make decision soo much that they literally takes control of everything.

and of course, there is another type of guy who doesnt like to make decisions, prefers to take the back seat.

cant they be decision makers but not till the extend of controlling, open to people's say but make the decisions.

' updates

2007-09-06T00:00:00.000+08:00

konnichiwa!!!~

its been awhile since i update my blog. pardon me, my house wireless went missing which i dont know why because im not good at IT stuff. so yeah, my practical has been great only that today was my circuit assesment and i blew it. had 28 demerit points, which suck BIG time. had this "unidentify mood" whereby i felt disappointment and a mix of anger which i dont know why. i get pissed off easily lately and its not because of PMS, or could it be. forget it, i just had that kinda mood which explains why my tone is as such. to complete everything, here is the icing to the cake, i had a bad burn on my leg!!!~ how bad can it be???!!~ this was due to the extremely hot exhaust pipe of the motorcycle. *ouch*

so yeah, so basically my life have been just me and my bike license since the school holiday started.

still looking for a job at starbucks/coffee bean. any vacancies???! =)

speaking of school, results out and my gpa is constant. was expecting it to drop due to the stress level but hey, it maintained. thank god!!~ actually to be honest, i was hoping fot it to improve but i guess i didnt put in enough effort or i wasnt up for the challenge. that explains everything.
*weird huh, expecting a drop but hope for improvement"

i guess till here i can update. cant think of anything new at the moment.

jah neh!!!~

'motor

2007-08-14T16:47:00.000+08:00

Konnichiwa!!!~

as some of you know, im taking my motocycle license. now im still at practical lesson 2. still new to it. figure 8, crank course and slope are hard obstacles!!!~ goodness, i tell you, i went up the curb!!!~ LOL!!!~ nevertheless, it was a great experience!!!~

so yeah, training going to start soon and im going to be busy. semester break is ending and im sooo gonna miss my classmate especially the fantastic 4 microbio group.

YUSRA
HIDAYAH
IMRAN

shall update further...

Jah neh!!~

'random

2007-08-10T09:13:00.000+08:00

Ohayou!!!~

Its been awhile since i've update my blog. i was a little busy with things. i was the culture workshop committee as the programmer along with the ladies, fatin, mira and eza. the culture workshop was held last saturday and it was great!!!~ it was better than i thought. everything when smoothly except for little bumps here and there, which is normal. i really thought there would be a lot of complication as it was our first time planning for such an event. but hey, im glad the committee members communicate well.

today, my parent are off to KL. sent them off at Yishun MRT station, their bus point. woke up at 5.20 am dressed up and help out my parents with their stuff. taxi came at 6.10am. arrive at 6.30am, nice timing as my parents have to report at their bus point at 6.30am. after my parents board their bus, me and little bro went for breakfast at MacDonald. after our heavenly breakfast, we went to school and i was early. LOL!!! this explains why im still early despite the breakfast session. oh yeah, i forgot to mentioned that the taxi driver was sleepy!!!~ DAMN HIM!!~ he was switching lanes. i was super worried!!! must be that he took the night shift. BLOODY HELL!!!~ endangering lives!!!~ COMPLAIN!!~ LOL!!!~ typical singaporean.

oh and HAPPY 42th National Day!!!~

guess what??? i saw fireworks for the first time. usually i only see it in the TV. met up with ashik, aidil. kholique and umarie at town. i had my ever favourite ice cream, BLIZZARD!!~ and off we walk along Singapore river had a spot and sat waiting for the fireworks. the view wasnt that clear but hey!!! i managed to see fireworks for the first time!!!~

i sooo wanna watch RUSH HOUR 3!!!~

This week, i only attend class for 1 day, which was Anatomy and Physiology and the rest of the days i skipped and stayed in the library and watch movie with the "setans". They are the ones that encourages me to skipped. Actually i wanted to attend class but seeing them, i changed my mind. LOL!!!~ SETANS!!!~ The fact is, im the one who wanted to skip. HEY!!!~ dont tell me that i encourage you people to skip to. HMPH!!!~

Today, my Microbio class. since i have not skip, might as well i spent time with my LOVELY friends, ryte??? come on. im sure you would agree with me.

OK im DONE!!!~

Happy ASMIN???

I just want to post some random pictures!!!~

* we just enroll on the 07.07.07

* The Culturephilic committee

'pass!!!~

2007-07-31T13:03:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!~

i PASSED my THEORY TEST conducted by the traffic police!!!~

Now, left my practical. Hope i can get motorcycle license within this year!!!~

=))

' free-ness!!~

2007-07-16T18:22:00.000+08:00

konnichiwa!!~

when you are too busy, you complaint.
when you are too free, you complaint.
sigh. LOL!!~

Today, im supposed to have my gamelan training BUT it was cancelled as my instructor sprained his ankle. I wonder what he did. Pity him. So had a little fun playing different instruments at our own will and i was off to the school library.
Meet ashik. he is supposed to do his FYP but in the end he and his FYP mate watch some music video at Youtube. LOL!!~

"You want to pass or not???"

LOL!!~

Im supposed to watch Harry Potter with the besties tomorrow BUT i forgot that i have gamelan. the PM coming and its a BIG thing so i had to postponed the movie outing on Thurday. Im sorry but i had to skip silat. hey, its not everyday i skip silat. as long as my attendance is okay, im FINE!!~ LOL!!~ can't wait to watch Harry Potter. PLEASE LET IT HAPPEN!!!~
* Im sorry guys, i had to postponed it to Thursday.

Till den, jah ne!!~

' no idea

2007-07-13T17:08:00.000+08:00

Konnichiwa!!!~

I had a class outing with my dearest E35D. On Tuesday, my facilitator was super kind enough to let us off early. We didn’t have our 3rd meeting as we had lab. She told us, once we are done with the verification and able back check it with the law and equation given, we are off. Not forgetting submitting our lab report before 4pm. There was only Fatimah, Hidayah, Yusra, Naz, Guang Roong, James and myself that were really into class bonding. Some of us wanted to watch Die Hard 4.0 but too bad, it wasn’t out yet. In the end we all watch 13:Game of death. Was a gruesome show as the challengers get harder each stage. I just can’t stand the challenge during lunch time. You wouldn’t want to imagine what he had to eat as part of his challenge. It was a little disappointing at the end as we didn’t understand what was happening. Nevertheless, the challengers he had to do were a great entertainment. Some funny moments we had before the show. We had around an hour before the show starts. So we head to the arcade and played games. The girls wanted to race but there were only 3 Daytona machines that were working. We still race but I have no idea what it was and how it operates. Its amazing how Hidayah won the race. She was so quiet during the race, while Fatimah and myself were making noises fighting for 1st place, Hidayah just come in and won the race by seconds before me, ARGH!!!~ LOL!!~ After that, Fatimah and myself played basket ball. Its amazing yet embarrassing as to how all the 4 balls got stuck in the loop and there were this group of guys behind us watching and laughed as to how BELO we can be!!~ At first, only 2 balls was stuck, so I though if the 3rd ball were to go in, it would be able to push the 2 balls down but instead it got stuck. So I place in the last ball thinking it could REALLY push all the balls down but in the end all the balls were stuck in the loop. Both of us were laughing our heads off. We called for assistance and managed to get a refund and in the end we race again, this time, BIKE race. LOL!!~

Some funny moments we had!!!~

* James gaying with Guang Roong

* all the four balls that got stuck.

* up close

* We were cheating just so we could get a lot of tickets. LOL!!~

Last Thursday, training just started after a month of rest due to IVP. Some of us have not recovered fully from our injuries and happened to be that Asmin was one of them. So CIk Mail was massaging his leg and I happened to snap a picture or two. Okay a series of photo that is and here are some painful moments for Asmin!!!~ LOL!!~

~!! END !!~

Random:
Its been awhile ever since I experience this feeling again. Nevertheless, I shall not dwell on it much as I’m afraid I’ll never recover back.

'dinner

2007-07-02T13:12:00.000+08:00

2 GUYS A GIRL AND A PIZZA PLACE... NOT!!!~

*weehoo!!!~

Konnichiwa!!~

last week had a great dinner with the besties!!~ after school, i rushed to Tampines to meet up with Akmal. i thought G came along but instead he wasnt and lepak with his "mat" friends. LOL!!~ so met Akmal and took bus 21 to meet Helmi at Pasir Ris as he had to change his formal clothes. After that, we took 89 to Changi for DINNER!!~

In the bus, had our catch-up session. LOL!!~ mostly they were "psycho-ing" me to spend more time with them then be involved in "malay" activity. Gamelan is not "malay" activity. being their goofy self, they try to twist their words and make it as if its malay-ish. Haiyoo!!!~

So yeah, we talkes soo much that we missed a stop and the next stop wasnt near. Helmi and I suggested we take bus back. Akmal was swearing. LOL!!~ He wasnt using concession and walking WASNT a choice. Hahah!!!~ We had to cross and the traffic was quite heavy. There was this huge lorry that was moving fast and as it pass me, there were a loud screech!!!~ it startled me a little and Akmal was laughing at me due to my reaction. HOW BAD CAN YOU BE!!!~ LOL!!~

Anyway, enjoy the pictures.

*soo much of our seafood galore. LOL!!!~ in the end we ate nasi lemak with cockles and crispy baby squid. the baby squid was awesome!!!~ *salivating*

THE CRAZY PEEPS!!!~

*HELMI. Studies only for exams and not tests. Who thinks he can excel in his upcoming test without studying. "Macam paham"

*Akmal. The guy who enjoys complaining. Goes to school just to have fun. Makes friend with the technian whose name is similar to an animal's name.

* AND MYSELF. The ever nice girl who tolerates the complains and mood swings of her besties. LOL!!~ Come on, im sure you would agree. 'wink'

OVERALL,

AKMAL + HELMI = TOTAL HAPPINESS!!!~

CAMWHORING AT THE BUSTOP!!!~ LOL!!!~

* caught gay-ing as usual. LOL!!~

AND FINALLY!!~ US AGAIN!!!~

* oh yeah, east people appears to look younger!!!~ we are 18 but look like 16!!!~ LOL!!~

'Yeh-BO!!!~

2007-06-26T12:53:00.000+08:00

Konnichiwa!!!~

So yeah, i had a blast with my gamelan peeps!!~ Yeh-BO!!~
Had our debut performance for gentarasa, its just a fringe performance not one of the gentarasa performance. To be honest, we were panicking before our performance as we had only around 2 weeks of training and its SHOWTIME!!~ Overall, we did great and just this performance, we bonded well!!!~ Gonna love this team!!~

Here are some pixs.

Random:
i cant believe because of a name we can fight. Haiyoo 'arifah!!!~

2007-06-20T14:22:00.000+08:00

Im back!!~

There are so many things I would like to share but I have no idea where to start.

Lets start with Inter Varsity Polytechnic (IVP). It was on the 2nd - 10th June 2007 at NUS. This year, we really train hard and our hard work paid off by becoming 1st runner up losing to NYP, the overall champion. It was a tremendous achievement for us – from nothing to something. I would like to highlight some friend of mine whose worth mentioning.
Men Class A, Asmin. He is one of the best fighters we have. He may be small but he kicks asses!! He defeat opponent that are taller than him. He showed me that height isn’t a factor to win. It’s the determination and hard work that spells W-I-N!!~ I guess he was short of luck that he lost in semi final. Nevertheless, he put up a great fight all the way. All in all, he won us a Bronze medal.
Men Class C, Bala Krishna. He is the 1st Indian fighter that I’ve known to participate in Malay martial art. He really has tremendous fortitude to go far. Unfortunately, he came up short with this good fighter. On a bright note, he put up a great match despite knowing that his opponent was a good fighter.
Men Class D, Azhar. He is the best!!!~ He has powerful side and back kicks. Well, only that he is a little emotional during fights but managed to handle it after that. I’m a little envious with him. I think he can just kick anyhow and somehow it hits the target perfectly. I guess that is his special skill he acquires. In the end, with all his skills, he won us a Gold medal!!~ WeeHoo!!~
These are some of our heroes who put up a really good fight against awesome fighters.

As for me, I wasn’t much of a fighter and so I lost my first match. It was a “trashy” moment for me. I fight my best and gave my opponent a hard time during the three rounds. I have no luck or maybe no skill and I lost. Nevertheless, I won silver for artistic duo with Nina. =))

Some pictures of IVP!!~

* the whole team

* just us

*excited

*us again

*the seni winners

*more RP winners

*the girls!!~

*random pictures

* of all the pictures, i like this the best. dont ask me why.

Had our besties dinner. We went and had dinner at Changi. They wanted to eat ayam penyet. As usual, if im at Changi, I’ll always think SEAFOOD!!~ I had cockles!!~ YUMMY!!~ Typical of us, we crap a lot and had really lots of time together. Then, there was a topic about relationship. Hah!!~ so unlike them. They were talking about girls and this came up. There were four of us and two are attached and in serious relationship. It actually sets me thinking. *sigh* we continue talking and I had to be back home early as my dad wouldn’t let me go home late. I hope we’ll have dinner again soon. Loving them the most!!~ They are my everything!!~

So yeah, not that long of an entry.

Jah ne!!~

'gamelan

2007-05-30T20:04:00.000+08:00

konnichiwa!!~

my gamelan session just ended and guess what???

it was SUPER AWESOME!!!~

the music is soooooo mystical!!!!~ it just gives you the chill!!!~ SCARY!!!~ but SUBARASHII!!!~

the instructor was a little soft spoken but he was everything but not boring. i really enjoyed the session. i played the Saron demung. its a simple instrument to play and its loud!!~ i managed to make new fren. her name is izzy. shes nice, she can entertain my craziness for music. now, im looking forward to every training. i heard there is alot of performances and im soo psyched if im in it!!~

just thinking about gamelan makes me forget about my worries. it just makes you happy. okay, maybe i have a thing with music. thats why im psyched about it.

anyway, the fixtures out!! my artistic duo at 1145 arena B, NUS and im fighting at 1615 arena B NUS. Both of it happening on SUNDAY!!!~ Saturday is the guys matches. GAMBATTE RP!!!~

' happy birthday hazmi

2007-05-29T12:41:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY HAZMI!!!~

Best of luck for your exams!!~

=)

'madness

2007-05-28T13:18:00.000+08:00

so here i am sitting at a corner reflecting on what has gotten into me. I don’t usually skip class for fun but today, I just don’t have the study mood. A lot of things been on my mind which I need to sort it out before I go berserk.

Today lesson was about equilibrium. i just dont know why i wasnt in the mood. IVP is really bothering me. during the 1st meeting i wasnt really thinking on skipping today's lesson. only that after 2nd meeting, i was sooo lost that someone can just smacked my head and i wouldnt even realise. its really that bad. usually im soo up for challengers just that why not today. is it because im too exhausted that i pretend not knowing. my dad been tellin me that i've overwork myself and i need a time out. i guess the time out is NOW!!~ is it too late??? *sigh*

IVP is SUPER near and its this SATURDAY. I’m competing this SP girl which I don’t know who. Sunday would be my duo artistic and we’re the 4^th team to perform. Been training hard for this and i hope i can really bring back some medal.

School hasn’t been fun especially if you’re a science student. At times, it gets soooo boring/stressful that you’ll go, “What have I got myself into???~”. Now, I’m waiting for my PP advisor to reply my email before I can submit my PP proposal which is due this Wednesday. ARGHH!!~ Apart from that, Im in MCG-Culture Workshop Committee. I still have to come up with a program during this hectic IVP week. ARGHH!!!~ To make things worst, I have UT this FRIDAY!!!~ and its Anatomy and Physiology. I still have not revise my works ever since UT 1 ended. Now, I have to really find that time, which I don’t know how, to revise my studies.

I hope i dont go crazy soon.

MADNESS!!!~

'disappointment

2007-05-22T14:03:00.000+08:00

disappointed in myself for not knowing whats happening back at home.

i pray everything will be alright soon.

i just worry what would happen in the long run.

'11 qn

2007-05-10T15:14:00.000+08:00

Konnichiwa!!~

This was supposed to be done a long time ago as requested by my dearest ‘arifah ‘atiqah!!!~ LOL!!~ but I was overdue. To not disappoint her, I guess, I shall do as requested.

1. What is the first feeling that you can describe yourself?

Hmm. First feeling that I can describe myself. Should be Happy!!!~ Sha La La!!!~ Im a happy person!!~ I like to smile a lot, I really do. It makes me happy as well as others. You know, your smile can make people go “You make my day!!~”

2) Give colour(s) to represent your life and why?

Colour… Dark pink??? Because its my current favorite colour??? LOL!! Okay, maybe it does reflect me. Dark pink would have shades of pink and black. Black would be my discontentedness in life. Im certain everyone has experience it before. As for pink, it would be my amicable personality, I guess.

3) What is your personality like?

This is a very good question. I don’t usually define myself that much. Maybe I can say that I care for others a lot. I put people’s feeling first instead of mine as I don’t want to cause any inconvenience to anyone.

4) Who is/are the people you confide to?

Mainly, Helmi and Akmal. I tell them basically anything. From random feelings to heart-felt-truth. They never fail to cheer me up. Always there when needed. Sadly, we hardly meet as we are busy with our studies and school. But still in touch with each other. =))

5) How much do you share and communicate with your family member and with whom and what are the issues?

How much do I share and communicate with my family member?? Hmmm… Not so much, not so little too. With whom and what issues? If my parents, usually about going out to buy household product, “jemputan”, my grandparents. With my older brothers, its usually about food, nothing else. We hardly talk. With my little brother, we are starting to be close. He told me about his life. Other than that, we’ll talk about shoes and shirts. At times, we go shopping together. He is the only one I talk to most.

6) List five problems you face as the teenager.

Studies – I would really like to get a diploma with distinction.

Freedom – I have to be home by 7pm. Well, I didn’t complain much instead im starting to appreciate it.

Time management - im very busy with school activity that i hardly have time for myself. After IVP, taking license and thought of working. Tutoring my cousin??? ARGHH!!!~

Financial – I would like to try to earn my pocket money myself. My dad paid for my school fee which is a lot and bus fares and allowance. I thought of getting allowance myself.

Relationship – its self explanatory

7) Is boy and girl relationship important and why?

Important? Maybe not now. But if im in one, the relationship would be important to me. I will definitely appreciate every moment with my significant other and hoping its my last. In other words, im not looking for a boyfriend im looking for a husband.

8) If you’re attached, how open, honest, truthful, out-spoken or sensitive are you to your partner?

If im attached, I’ll be dead honest and truthful to my significant other. I believe when you are honest and truthful, that is where trust is built. Trust is very important. I will never want to hurt him. I’ll always try to think if what I do might hurt him. But sadly, at times, I just cant control myself and gave attitude or say things I didn’t mean which lead to undesirable outcome – argument. If not I’ll always be sensitive to his feelings.

9) What do you think other people’s first impression on you?

Hahah!!~ Well, if im not wrong people will say that im a cheerful person, no? Which to me was a good thing as it is part of me. A common first impression of me. Occasionally, some thought im Chinese, Malaysian Chinese or Indonesian??? LOL!!~ cant help it. im not a pure malay. This I can guarantee.

10) If you can make a change, what do you want to change in your life and why?

What a good question. Hahah. Okay, I learnt a lot about life from relationship. That is the reason why I treasure being in relationship. I once found someone I, unquestionably, feel that really completes me. I just felt that I, truly, can be myself. If I can change something it would be from this relationship. I would sacrifice a little of my busy school life just to be with him and loving him as if tomorrow never comes. Nevertheless, I treasure every moment with him. =))

11) Complete this sentence –

Apathy in life is…

wasting away every precious minute you have on earth. you never know when you'll leave. so treasure you loved ones, thinking theres no tomorrow. LOL!! philosophical eh???

'tired + sleepy = exhaustion!!!~

2007-05-09T12:35:00.000+08:00

konnichiwa!!~

i was around town 3am in the morning. somewhere near Fullerton Hotel. babyface!!~ LOL!!~ narh, i dont intend to club. there are other ways to enjoy yourself, being around friends!!!~ i just went pass it because we were having NIGHT CYCLING!!!~

4th of May 2207
for the first time, i went NIGHT CYCLING!!!~ was super fun having naz, sufian, su, raihan, asmin, bala, aidil, kholiq and umar around. just us 10 is enough. LOL!!~ was utterly enjoyment. we didnt know that the night cycling committee was mostly republicans. GO RP!!~

our starting point was at Tampines East CC. straight after our MCG meeting, we did our RJ and head to Fir's house to put our stuff. asmin and i didnt visit Fir's house as we straight met them at the CC. as usual, silat people = late. it wasnt solely my conclusion of silat people but there are others that actually agree with me. so, asmin and i was at the CC before 9.30pm, which was supposed to be the meeting time. we waited for the others to arrive and they arrive at 10pm. LOL!!~ we werent "late" as there was "team bonding activity" going on. there were other groups that participated. the turn out was great. around 50 cyclist!!~ mainly we conqured one lane while cycling on the road. we cycle around tampines for around 30mins i guess and head off to East Coast then to Lau Par Sat, is that the correct spelling? After that head back to tampines at 7 plus in the morning. the checkpoint may be a few but the journey there was challenging. went up benjamin shear's bridge was tough!!!~ but going down was exhilirating!!!~ the feeling is like being on a rollercoaster ride!!~ the only thing that i cant stand was the stoppingS!!!!~ seriously ALOT of stopping!!!~ the stopping made me sleepy. every stop, i took a little nap because i seriously cant stand it!!! nevertheless, i was alert while cycling. i have no idea where i had the energy to be alert after a nap. maybe its just my prayers that i'll be safe throughout the journey.

after making our way back to the CC. we head off to Fir's house. plan was to take our bag eat breakfast at some coffeeshop and head home but some end up dozing off while others play game. i was half awake. manage to sleep for maximum 15mins and was awake. then slept back and was awaken again and it continues for a couple of times. I DIDNT GET TO SLEEP PEACEFULLY!!!! LOL!!~ oh had breakfast at Fir's house. his mum was sooo kind to buy stuff for us. THANX CIK!!!~ after breakfast some continue sleeping others play game as usual until 12plus and we head home. once at home, i showered and went straight to bed. I WAS SOOOO SLEEPY!!!~ what a relieve!!~

so yeah, IVP is coming and im getting injuries frquently. sigh. busted my ankle again. i guess its just my preparation for IVP. wish me luck.

you never know how meaningful you are to me. sometimes it doesnt need an explaination but understood.

'i hate myself for being a bad friend

2007-05-01T20:40:00.000+08:00

ARGHH!!!!~

i hate myself for being such a bad friend. i seriously like to apologise my former class W26K. my busy-ness has kept me away from you. im sorry.

some peeps i seriously miss most.
cheryl
joey
atiqah
janice

firstly, i would like to wish HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY CHERYL!!!~ im sorry. im soooo overdue. please let me make it up to you. im sorry for forgetting you birthday!!!!~ GOD!!~ what a friend. *sigh*

for joey, atiqah and janice - i seriously miss you guys.

i miss enterprise lesson with you, joey. we were supposed to reseach but end up watching Goong. LOL!!~

i miss culture lesson with you, atiqah. it was sooooo much fun having you as a team mate. even though our team lacks manpower, we still deliver a great presentation, too me that is.

i miss science lesson with you, janice. *you'll always be the blur one* LOL!! having you around would be soo much fun as we end up getting our facts right by your blurness when we keep explaining to you.

im sorry girls. lets hang out soon.

as for my former class W34G. I SERIOUSLY HOPE WE HAVE SOME GATHERING. I MISS YOU, BADLY. =....(

taggy replies
To MUMU: i will not call you hero until you tell me something that is worth the call
To cheryl: i will link you up and please forgive me for the late birthday wish
To scarzy: i miss you too!!!~ lets hang out soon
To -='aRiFaH=-: i will do it when im free but i will definitely do it. =)
To joey: i miss w26k too, especially you. =)
To atiqah: yea, my JB trip was fun. about that, forget it k?

'purely random

2007-04-30T23:55:00.000+08:00

this is purely random.

we are at the library, supposedly to revise but end up craping. LOL!!!~
what do you expect, soooo stressed out with studies. year two can really bleed you dry.

what do you feel like doing/eating/craving at that particular point of time???
bala: mee goreng at Johore
asmin: karaoke-ing
nina: eating plain chocolate ice-cream
me: eating seafood
*utterly randomness*

IVP is nearing and i've been experienceing alot of injuries which started to worry me for the first time. i've sprained my ankle twice in a day, new record, blue black patches around my left leg. recently i fell off my bed and hit something hard on the floor, CHEEK first. now i have a huge blue black patch on it. *sigh*

alot been going on and i hardly have time to rest. i just dont know what is stoping me. i thought i was doing great. when i started to think again, im actually not. i put in sooo much effort, time and made lots of sacrifices that affect my life tremendously. YET, now im giving up??? am i?? why am i feeling this?? it shouldnt have crossed my mind, not now. why now??? *sigh*

this thursday there will be sparring session and a so-called selection for sparring category in IVP. i have to admit, im SERIOUSLY not prepared. in the first place how would i know im prepared. GOD!!~ this is really killing me. once a friend told me, you dont have passion for this but why do you still give effort. honestly, i have NO IDEA.

i seriously need REST!!!!~
can i???
1 month to IVP...

please give me the strength that i need to overcome these ordeals. i barely have the faith to carry on.

'some things in mind

2007-04-25T00:23:00.000+08:00

this is a late entry.

school wasnt the same again. apart from the friends that im with and the environment, studying has been increasingly challenging. since when studying is easy especially if you are in a fact-based course. you cant smoke around. if you have the wrong facts means its wrong. and the fact that its challeging makes you stress out when its only the beginning. *sigh*
life is a challege, in many ways. school days will never be the same again.

training for IVP can be SUPER tiring. injuries are inevitable. suffering from back pain, ankle giving me problem, right toe hurts BIG time. on thw whole my whole bady is aching. well, cant complaint much as this is what i decide to commit to.

Randomness,
"convincing myself dat it was just a phase"
*sigh*

'JB!!~

2007-04-22T22:22:00.000+08:00

konnichiwa!!~

this is a long entry sooo yea. i hope it doesnt bore you as there are pictures to view. we went to JB on the 12 of April. this was what happen...

so lets see. we met up at woodlands mrt station at 1030am. well, i came a little late and saw azhar and umar running somewhere. tried to follow them but they just went off. so i didnt bother that much and find a place to sit and wait for bala and asmin. later they came back with cheeseballs. LOL!!~

around 11am, bala and asmin arrive and just in time, bus 950 came and we board it. took some pics in the bus. when we arrive at singapore custom, i didnt know i can just scan my passort and thumbprint until umar tell me. it was my first time and its way efficient. i dont have to wait for that long queue. we then proceed to malaysia custom, after all of us cleared the custom, bala was called up by the officer. after a few minutes, he was released. guess what was the problem? his passport expiring in a month time. silly guy, bala.

*smilling away while waiting for bala and asmin

*in 950 otw to check point. ^SMILE!!!~

*come on bala, dont be shy to look at the camera

*1, 2 LETS GO!!!~ JB here i come!!!~

we head on to city square after changing some money. walked around for awhile before heading to the cinema to catch some malaysian movie that is not in singapore. i happened to chance upon this push cart that sells anime stuffs and a whole lot of korean actors pictures. and guess what i saw, a death note necklace which was super awesome!!!~ and it doesnt cost me much. How great can it be!!!~ so we continue our way to the cinema and to our surprise, there were a lot of people!!~ and it was because wednesday Movie Day and the ticket is RM6 than usual RM9 or 10. we decide to watch...
"Jangan Pandang Belakang" Don't look back in english.

*just walking around City Square. ^EXCITED!!!~

*stop by at this bridal stall and glance through some wedding photos. LOL!!!~ our intention was to take photo.

After buying ourselves some popcorns and hotdogs, it was showtime and we head off to the hall. OH, i forgot to mention that the cashier for the snack booth look exactly like *&^%. so azhar, being cheeky, as him if he knows *&^%. LOL!!~ it was sooo HILARIOUS!!!~ im sorry i had to disclose the name. moving on, the seat was way better than singapore as it has head support. Overall, the movie was a BLAST!!~ It was funny and scary. Let me elaborate. we actually played guessing game. e.g. we tried to guess where the ghost would appear and such. sad to say, 20% of our guesses were true, that means the movie was AWESOME!!!~ further more the sound effect and the timing scared the hell out of us till asmin had to put the popcorn across his face. LOL!!~ sorry asmin. bala was sitting low. azhar, i dont know what his reaction was as i was a little far from him. and umar, it seems that he was fine and he can still laugh. as for me, you dont want to know. go figure!!~ LOL!!~ there was one of the scene whereby the bomoh performs an exorcism and he used boiled corn as the medium to expel the spirit out of the body and plant it. after the movie, we re-enact that scene with our unfinished popcorn. LOL!!~ Umar acted out as the bomoh and said exactly the same thing, couldnt believe he can still remember the line, and plant the popcorn in my bag. of all places, my bag. *diao*

after the movie, we went for food hunting. wanted to go local and eat at the warong but we couldnt find one and ended up at Marrybrown. we sat at this swinging chair near the window. the first thing that caught our eyes was the jukebox!!!~ it was sooo old school!!!~ instead of ordering food, we decide to choose a song. LOL!!~ took us awhile to pick a song and ended up, i punched in the wrong number and it played Avil Lavigne, Im With You, if im not wrong, instead of Nelly's song which i forgot the lyrics. HAHA!!~ after ordering, azhar and bala wasnt satisfied and decide to choose another 2 songs. CRAZY!!~ one of the song was, of course, Nelly song and the other was Hindustan song. LOL!!!~

*azhar and bala at the jukebox

*better than KFC, no???

*dont mind the weird expression.

*bala, u look tired. come on, its just the starting!!!~

after having our lunch, we took a cab to Angsana. since the cab cant accomodate 5 people, we had to split. azhar and bala one cab and umar, asmin and me in the other. upon reaching, we made our way up to karaoke. stop by a few shops to see shoes and amazingly the shoes there are really a good bargain. sooo wanna get the everlast shoe. we changed our money to one RM coins and i bet you, we spent around more than RM10 just for it. we sang alot of songs. from jiwang songs to old school songs like i will survive, heal the world, some backstreet boys song. was effing exhilirating!!! we sing our lungs out. OH!!~ we enjoy singing one of the senario song. it goes like this,

"Toleh Kanan, Toleh Kiri, Toleh Depan Tapi Bukan Belakang"

i was laughin the whole time because we made funny dance move. azhar is sooo good at it. LOL!!~ i didnt know Bala was actually singing with us. OH!!~ he sang I'll Survive and Achi Achi Buka Pintu. SUBARASHII!!!~ LOL!!!~

After the singing-your-lungs-out karaoke session, we went BOWLING!!!~
it was bala's first time and you can imagine where the ball roll to. LOL!!~ but later on, he manage to get the flow. for a first timer, he really picks up fast. well, i was leading. maybe it was my luck that i had 2 consecutive strike!!!~ how cool can that be!!~ LOL!!~ but i came up short, umar beat my score in the end. was a close match he won the overall game.

*some random photo while waiting for their turn to bowl

*more random photo

*green ranger

*yellow ranger

*red ranger

*pink ranger

*orange ranger. is there??? LOL!!!~

*not the final score

*we're done

*SHOES!!!~

After the bowling session, we went to buy Dunkin Donut. theres no DD stall in Singapore so you really have to buy and EAT IT!!~ After buying, we took a cab and head back to City Square.

*there are actually on a stage and did a funny pose!!!~ LOL!!~

this incident shocked the hell out of azhar. as we arrive, we forget to tell each other where is our meeting place. we alighted at different place and we were sooo worried that we might get lost and not meet each other again. we couldnt call as our phones doesnt have auto-rooming. asmin and umar suggested that we wait for them at the taxi stand where we took the cab to Angsana and wait. soon enough, bala appeared. thanks to our wonderful tshirt colour, we manage to identify each other. what a relieve. azhar was sooo afraid that we might get lost and not get home.

after a long day, we had our dinner at some warong. it was nice!!~ ate some local food and after a good dinner, we bought some chewing gum and head back to Singapore. it was such a tiring day. oh, umar's bag was checked and asmin was body searched by the police. but nothing happened, we didnt bring in illegal stuff. cigarettes, DONT EVEN THINK ABOUT IT!!~ LOL!!~ asmin dropped off first as he was having a flu. LOL!!~ this is a weird fact about him. everytime we go out, the following day, he'll be sick. WEIRD EH!!!~ so left bala, umar, azhar and myself. we ate our Dunkin Donut somewhere near Woodlands MRT bicycle park. took some pictures crap alot and went home.

*otw home. tired faces

*Dunkin Donut!!!!~ WEEEHOO!!!~

*some of the things we bought there!!!~

*this is the unfinish popcorn!!!~ LOL!!~

*what were you thinking!!~

what a long day!!~ and yes, a LONG entry. i could only remember this few things and if i missed out some part im sorry. i have STM. so yeah!~ thats our 1st JB trip!!~

jah neh!!!~

'back to school

2007-04-15T20:39:00.000+08:00

konnichiwa!!!!

school starting tomorrow!!!!

im excited as well as worried. excited to meet new friends. worried about my studying. i wonder how my team mates will turn out to be. im a little bit paranoid about my studying. yeah, i admit im weird.

Here i come!!~

cant wait for lab work.

till then, jah neh!!~

'aft a month

2007-04-12T00:00:00.000+08:00

This is the lyrics for Elliot Yamin, Wait For You. Enjoy.

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

Bridge-
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

Chorus-
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

Verse 2-
It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

Bridge-
Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

[Chorus]

Bridge-
So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for youIf it's the last thing i do

[Chorus]

I'll Be Waiting...

'yamapi's birthday!!~

2007-04-10T00:12:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 山下智久!!!!

Okay i know im late by a day BUT that doesnt mean i forget about him.

i wonder how his celebration was?

well, no matter how it went, i hope he had a blast!!~

anyway, today was great!!~

went to tapa house and had a movie marathon

watched Waterboy, Drumline and White Chick.

half-way through we pause for awhile. someone was hungry, so we cooked ourself scrambled egg. oh and farah, tapa and g's friend was there too. shes nice. =)

so yeah, tomorrow training at 12pm. we have to come up with our windbreaker design, which i have not done it, and goals for IVP. i wonder what i get myself into. sigh.

till then. jah neh!!~

'a week of FUN!!~

2007-04-08T22:00:00.000+08:00

konnichiwa

its been awhile. before i start my entry, there is a request from Raja Asyraf.

.:asyraf:.*^"I'm Famous In Italy"*^..

started the week with a bad note. had this nauseating feeling the whole night. didnt sleep the whole day. was in the toilet the whole time. its said that when you have this feeling, its best to vomit but i was too afraid to do so. tried other ways to ease the feeling but wasnt successful. i was sooo petrified to do so that i had to tear myself to vomit. by then, it was 5plus in the morning and i felt a little better. slept for awhile till 6am, prayed and went back to sleep. well, it was more of a nap.
8am, i had to prepare myself for my cousin's solemnisation at ROMM. the solemnisation went well, and my aunt invited us for lunch at arab street. soon did i realise that i had a swollen throat. didnt eat that much and off i went for my training. i came late though. my dad ask me to take 960 from bugis to woodlands. i insist but he kept pestering me to take it. didnt want to disappoint him, i took the bus that lead me to many wonderful memories. teared myself to sleep. well, didnt sleep that long as i was worried it wouldnt reach woodlands. kept myself awake by thinking of many things till i finally reach woodlands.
training was okay. i fell once as i lose control of myself. had that nauseating feeling again but it wasnt that bad. had some blackout moments but i managed to snap out of it, luckily. after training, took a short nap around 20-30mins while the rest was talking crap.

so yeah, a bad start for last week.

nevertheless, it wasnt bad the whole week, met up with the BESTIES!!!~ accompany helmi for his dental appointment. after that walked to chinatown, in search of McDonald. found some interesting thing. the street was names "Mosque Street" but it sells bak kwa and was filled with non-halal coffeeshops. contradicting huh?? after G had his lunch at McDonald, we head of to Vivo where we chilled out, sing songs and ate donut. LOL!!!~

*Vinco is the name

*Donuts!!!~

*It was a chilling good time... The ever "fierce" G and the ever "weird" Helmi.

Dont mind the weird expression of his. This is Helmi and hes always weird but nice. =)

This is Akmal. He is always thinking. LOL!!~
During the outing he had a quote: "One Day..."
Let me recall why i said so.
He said:
One day, lets watch movie at Vivo.
One day, lets walk home from town.
One day, lets walk, cycle, take the monorail to sentosa. *He prefers walking though.
One day, lets go to the zoo. *Hes going with his CMM friends though
One day, lets go on a cruise.
G suggested that we go Hong Kong while i suggested we go Japan when we are already working and Akmal's reply was something like dont think far, why not go Johor first, one day.
And many more, ONE DAY, which i fail to recall.

Apart from that, he was having mood swing i presume. Kept "scolding" people, more like raising his voice for no reason and its always funny as either G or Helmi will say "Sorry ah bang". LOL!!!~

And again, dont mind his weird expression. This is G. because of his name, we had this conversation, "Why do we call you G?" And it went on to why we call Helmi, miE Akmal, mal Azfar, tapa me, Mary and all of our other friends which had nick names thats not even close to their original name. they came up with lots of stupid reasonings and stories which were hilarious.

This is Tapa. We share something in common. Jap artist!!~ He is always crazy about Gackt, Tetsu and Hyde. He was the most well dressed among us. He made all of us look like a total slacker. He was sooo nicely dressed!!~ I was shocked at his dressing after sooo long not meeting him. He looks great except for the bow tie at the back of his vest!!~

*Group photo w/o akmal as he was the cameraman.

The day ended up by having dinner at Eunos as we had to accompany Akmal to his aunts house to take some food. Took bus 21. it was super crowded and we were at the entrace. usually the light at the entrace door will shut and guess what, when the light suddenly went off, we made some noise that was super funny!!!~ As if we were shocked.

So yeah, what a week. Hope this last week of school holiday will be a better one. i think this is one long entry. Till then.

Jah ne!!~

'start of a close friendship

2007-04-03T00:54:00.000+08:00

i was supposed to sleep early but i just cant help thinking about some of the conversation i had earlier.

nevertheless, i had fun today. played badminton with Azhar, Asmin and Mai. tried calling the rest but to no avail. after much body aching badminton lesson, not because of the tiredness playing badminton but the funny moments that was demonstrated by the ever belo, Mai. LOL!!!~ at around 2.30pm, we went swimming. wohooo!!! mai went off 1st as she had made some arrangements herself. left us three. well, we talked alot, and i mean alot!!~ anything under the sky. somehow, i feel im sooo much closer to them now.

oH!!~ im E35D!!!!~ Same class as Marcus!!!! Thank god!!!!~ At least i know someone in class. so far, every class im in, i'll at least know 1 person. not bad.

due to excitement, i forgot what i wanted to blog about. but well, i did blog about something.

till then, jah ne!!~

Randomness~

*Pierre andre
well, hes not that handsome but i just like the way he speaks. very soft spoken and polite. =))

*AND HER!!! *Fasha

'damn!!~

2007-04-01T17:06:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!!!!!!!~

NOOOO!!!!!~

*shattered dreams*

Pierre Andre going out with Fasha Sandha, whatever the spelling is.

*depressed*

Found this out while watching Melodi - TV3, a show whereby reporters interview Malaysian artist about their controversy, gossip and ... to find out the "truth" from them. A summary of what is going on between Pierre Andre and Fasha Sandha. There was a saying that he was "drunk" and went out of a club with Fasha. Reporter interview Pierre Andre and he said that he wasnt drunk and bla bla bla. Thats not the important part. The important part is whereby he admit that he and Fasha are getting to know each other and they are VERY, i repeat, VERY CLOSE!!!!! And guess what, Fasha admits it too.

Well, let them be. Celebrity relationship wouldnt last long. Look at Era and Yusry or even Nurul and Ajai. They are the most loving couple i've seen yet still divorce.

haHAHAHAH!!!~
i complain like as if i want to marry him. Fan girl mah!~ What do you expect!!

Its okay, i still have my yamapi.

<3

*its better if you hope for something that can never come than hoping for something that MAY come, as it tends to hurt more

' weirdly enough

2007-03-28T00:39:00.000+08:00

6 weird things about me???

1. i love gummies as if my life revolves around it
2. im a perfectionist when it comes to studying
3. i have lost my passion for silat but i still go for my trainings
4. i used to listen to old malay songs (not all jiwang), but i still prefer listening to indonesian songs
5. i love penguins alot!!!~ *way before the movie Happy Feet was shown*
6. im an ardent fan of yamapi!!!!~

Lucky few to do this: Maimanah, Azhar, Atiqah, Susu, 'Arifah, Sady!!!~

Randomness:
Guess who came up to me while i was having dinner at TM MacDonald recently?!!~

HELMI and AKMAL!!!!~

its been awhile since i met them. meeting them just COMPLETES my day!!!!~ was sooo excited but sad at the same time, how could you went out without me. nevertheless, catching up with them was such a great moment for me. i cant believe that i actually teared after they left. GOSH, I MISS THEM SOOO MUCH!!!~ *hugs* lets hang out soon guys!!!!~ =...)

'JP

2007-03-25T00:55:00.000+08:00

konnichiwa!!!!

its been a long time since i greet, i guess. LOL!!!~

let see if i can remember all the interesting happenings...

oh saturday's training was a little funny. talk about the referee all over the world and suddenly heard a VERY WEIRD name and being the normal us, belos, we make up our own name and mine is TIGA binte MOUNTAIN DEW!!!! LOL!!! Mai is EMPAT binte MILO!!! Raudah is SATU binte TEH PENG!!! and finally SU, the most important one *&^$%*&^ dont wanna mention, only she knows. LOL!!!!~

lets move on. went out with Su, Raihan, Umar, Azhar and Zul to jurong point. its been awhile since i dont know when i've been there, in the place have i been there before? i doubt so. LOL!!!~ anyway, we walked around jurong point, and after much walking we went to Liberty Market, if im not wrong, and bought a tub of ice cream that me and Mai bought the other day. we also bought famous amos cookies. we went out of the shopping mall and ate outside the MRT station where all the foreign workers "chill out". OH and Azhar was crapping with me. Hes so ridiculous la!!!~ Overall, the conversation was hilarious and fun!!! Thanx for the crappy-ness moment Azhar!!!~

some pictures to enjoy!~

*these are the guys and the foreign workers. they fit in perfectly!!! LOL!!!~

*up close...

Okay, done with the good times.

Randomness~
IVP is nearing and i have yet to get to my stable weight. sigh. 9 AWESOME week and its TIME!!! how scary and unprepared can you get? GOSH!!! *anxiety attack* Our team aiming for 5 gold. Last year they manage to bring in 4, kudos to them!!! Im participating in Ganda(Choreograph fighting scene in artistic category) and Olahraga(Sparring) Class B. GOD!!!! IM SOOO NERVOUS!!!

Shall not think about it toooooo much. Till then, jah ne!!!~

'moving on

2007-03-21T02:00:00.000+08:00

recently, been having trainings and have been going gym for quite sometime. it was awesome!!! it was my first time doing real work-out in the gym with a real gym instructor guidance. what else can i ask for!!!thanx didi, really appreciate it!!!!~ now i have to lose another 2kg more. after ivp, im wanna lose another 8kg if possible, insyaallah.

anyway, went out to town with ashik and umar after training. ashik wanted to take a break from his dull working life. we went to heeren, paragon, cineleisure and far east. check out alot of stuffs. there was only that one part that i was a lil embarassed. we went to look at briefs. felt a lil paisey. but they didnt mind that much and i wasnt that paisey so much because i have brothers at home so, im used to it. so yea. haHA!~

FINALLY!!!!~ i manage to visit MISE shop at cineleisure!!!!~ WOOOHOOO!!!!~ there are new photos of YAMAPI!!!! saw gazette photo too. I LOVE RUKI style in one of his photo, sleek, stylish and utterly GORGEOUS!!!! SOOOO GONNA BUY SOON!!!!~

*this was one of the pic that i saw at mise

after much walking, we felt a lil hungry, well ashik was hungry and we head off to get a lil bite. since we were at cineleisure, i introduced them to the ice cream BLIZZARD!!!!~ they have not tried it but heard about it and so we bought it. LOL!!~ it was AWESOME!!!!!~ they liked it!!! all the ice cream i ate ara all nice, trust me!!!!~

*bought cookies and cream blizzard

upon further walkin, we head off to McCafe and had frappe. talked alot about anything under the sky, especially about mat-rep!!!!~ LOL!!!~ after drinking up, we head home. was tiring yet fun!! thanx for the company guys!!!! really appreciate it!!! =))

im done here!!! jah ne!!!~

'its officially over

2007-03-19T22:15:00.000+08:00

i guess its official now... gave time to think over about the chaotic happenings in our lives and it boils down to this...

never could imagine life without you when u stepped into my world.

but you never know how long it will last. is there such thing as forever?

losing you made me realise that feelings are unpredictable.

i'll try to be off own my own, venturing into the world of uncertainties searching for the meaning of life.

nevertheless, i treasure everything that we share ... in the past ...

i guess time doesnt allow us ... only god knows how much i love you...

=...)

'unfinished

2007-03-16T19:00:00.000+08:00

manage to get the full song of Unfinished by X-Japan

the song is completely in english

a very mournful song

from the rhythm to the lyric ... my kind of song...

*longing to play piano

enjoy...

'regrets and misses

2007-03-13T16:55:00.000+08:00

how i wish this is all a bad dream. i wish i could wake up from this dream and do all the things i wish i did.

some of the things that i wish i did.

whenever i spent time with you, i wish i could hug you everytime before i leave.
but i didnt, i thought i had my whole lifetime to do this. trying to keep it for special occasions but it was my mistake.

at times, when i look into your eyes i wish i could tell you how much i love you.
but i said nothing.

when you wink at me the time when i told you it has no effect on me, and you stop. i wish you would do that often
but i made you stop. i was too shy to admit that i was blushing inside. how i wish you could do that often.

once, i could have just skip my training and went out with you as we hadnt spend time for a long time.
but instead, i went for my training.

the most important thing that i wish i did is to love you as if tomorrow never comes.

some of the things i miss

the feeling of being embraced

the security

the feeling of being coax

eating pudding together

the most important thing that i miss the most is the feeling of being love

when you love someone, never hesitate to tell your loved ones about some of the things that you hide from them. appreciate everything you loved ones did for you even if its just opening the door for you.

most important thing, love them as if tomorrow never come. you'll never know what might happen. life is full of uncertainties.

'unconditional love

2007-03-12T11:03:00.000+08:00

"acknowledge that it happened but just be yourself"

its unfortunate that this has to happen. i can only acknowledge it but i cant do anything. all that i can do is just be myself, the girlfriend you know and wish you...

Happy 9th Monthsary dear... May you be in best health...
* i will always love you, now and forever...

close your eyes and let your heart answer you questions.
if this is what you chose...
i'll always be here, waiting for you no matter how long it takes me.

*take my heart keep it somewhere deep in your heart and pursuit your dreams. dont worry about me because no matter what im always in your heart.
=...)

'acknowledge that it happened but just be yourself

2007-03-11T15:21:00.000+08:00

im glad my grandfather is okay now. he can walk properly and joke around like he used and not forgotting his all soo stubborn personality. im just a little disappointed that he started smoking again. he hasnt been smoking for 5 days while in the hospital. but after being discharged, he started smoking again. my grandmother, my father and me were really stopping him saying that we'll support you all the way but he, being his stubborn self light up the lighter and smoke. u'll never imagine how dishearthening it is. nevertheless, im just glad hes fine.

a special thank to syafiq, helmi, akmal, nina, umar for being there for me. really appreciate it alot.

'6hr swimming

2007-03-04T01:12:00.000+08:00

Rudolf and 'mary... what's their similarity??
- want more details??? continue reading...

konnichiwa!!!~

yesterday was a blast!!! spent 6hr swimming in school swimming complex. WAS AWESOME!!!! now i look like rudolf. my nose is ridiculously red, even though it cant be seen clearly and there is a distinct seperation of my fair skin and the sunburnt ones. this is what happedned when you dont use sunblock. not to worry, i guess its going to fade off in times to come and i'll have my natural skin colour again, i hope.

the boys having fun...

*picture brought to you by umar

*picture brought to you by umar

i wonder what were they thinking...

*picture brought to you by umar

here is asmin after the 6hr swimming...

asmin in action...

*picture brought to you by umar

these ladies wouldnt want to miss out the fun.. sooo unfair!!!~ they dont get sunburnt...

*picture brought to you by umar

here is my "wonderful arm".. you can clearly see the distinct change in my skin tone...

zoom in...

after a long swimming lesson, we head off to KFC and eat!!!~ havent been eating for the whole day... wanted to eat at banquet but it was soooo packed. head off to the other foodcourt but had little variety of halal food. end up eating at KFC.

'mary and nina... our sunburnt skin... woooohoooo!!!! nina, u still look sweet, dont worry.. =)

anyway, today at 10am i'll be going to my grandpa house, helping him to prepare for the big surgery. praying hard that i'll go smoothly. nevertheless, lets keep up the positive attitude!!!

out of curiousity, i was wondering is it me or people just took advantage of my kindness. let me just give you a scenario. as my malay language is failing me, i asked one of my dearest friend what is the meaning of pohon cemara and he convincingly said something like strawberry tree and foolish me, i believed it. then again, i think, strawberry in malay is strawberi and why is it cemara??? and he laugh!!!!~~ how sad can i be? this is why, sometimes being toooo nice isnt that good!!~ LESSON LEARNT!!!!~~ LOL!!!~

anyway, here are some random photos...

introducing to you, the one that almost melt me with his words, sorry dear, by saying "Saya tak cakap macam gitu, kan????~, with his polite soft voice from the movie CINTA him acting as Taufiq, Mohd Pierre Andre!!!!!~

*not his best photo

and Yours, truly....
i just love the effect... didnt do it, it was by accident... COOLNESS!!!!

enough said... Take care!!!~

Jah ne!!!~

'childhood memories

2007-03-02T23:09:00.000+08:00

konnichiwa!!!

firstly, i know i have not break the news yet but i think tomorrow is a good day, unless they are reading my entry now, anyway i would like to apologise to my selatra peeps for not being able to attend our biggest yet happening bbq this monday. i wish to be there but i have somewhere much important place to be at - right by my grandfather's side.

this monday, my grandfather is going through a major operation. his backbone, if im not wrong, somehow penetrating his nerve causing him cruciating pain . i wouldnt want to be anywhere but right by his side. honestly, i have to say that he is afraid to go through this because doctors said that it was a 50-50 thing. after the operation he either feel better or, touch wood this wouldnt happen, have to be wheelchaired. i pray hard he gets well.

i couldnt imagine life without him. he maybe the most stubborn person i've met but i love him with all my heart, who doesnt love their grandparents right? haha. as im writing this entry, im having flashbacks on all my childhood memories. both my parents were busy working and i was living with my grandparents. i was schooling at bedok back then and since my grandpa always go meet his friends at bedok he offered to pick me up after school and my mum would send me to school before going to work. i grew being around him and that is why i love him more than anything else.

to wrapped up the day,

out of random, im longing for famous amos cookies. nyahahah!!!

atiqah is mean. shes epitome of innocence in disguise.

susu, you are not my grandpa but i still love you. LOL!!!~

and UMAR, when will you tell me what is dicela??

'woohoo!!!

2007-02-28T16:48:00.000+08:00

konnichiwa!!!

oh, before i forget again, UMAR, you have yet to tell us what is dicela???!!!

yesterday, w26k had our chalet!!!~ at first i met MUMU at tampines interchange. he had the map so we thought we are fine off with it. later do we realise that we are REALLY LOST!!! n i really mean LOST. we were supposed to stop at beach club but we stopped at sailing club. we thought as long as there is club its okay but we were SOOO wrong!! after alighting we tried to navigate ourselves using the map. well, it didnt work out well. since we are near the resort centre we went to ask for help. ask the uncle for direction and we head off. luckily, with some assistant of the map MUMU printed out and signboards that was freaking useless as it wasnt place at strategic location for us users to identify where the hell we are heading, we FOUND the chalet!!!~

ohh yea!!~ had fun with darc, henry and joey when we played with the microwave oven. well, we were trying to find alternatives to cook the food faster and end up we were playing "cs". haHA!! how smart can we get, we place aluminium foil inside which had stingray in it and guess what???! there were so called "lighting" apperance in the microwave, as if we planted a bomb and shouted "take cover".was soo funny, we ran as fast as we could leaving the microwaave oven as it is. haHA!! and here comes the hero, not rizam, RAM!!!~ he cursed us and switched off the main switch. we laughed sooo hard at our stupidity. LOL!!! so yeah, that was some incidences. haHA!! after that, MUMU, atiqah, yiling and me head home taking a cab.

oh did i talk about atiqah way to the chalet. it was HILARIOUS!!! she said she knew how to get there, so we just gave her the name of the chalet. guess what???! she went to the wrong chalet which was apparently another RP student chalet. one guy suspected a stranger, which was her, and was sooooo sweet and kind enough to accompany atiqah. she of coz called us and we, the kind soul, head off to find her. from far,with my good eyesight (haHA!~), i saw this girl and i shouted "ATIQAH!!" and guess what is her reply, "YAY!!~" was sooo hilarious coz her face was sooo pale. so yeah!! that was atiqah's story.

i could only get this few pic. this is from MUMU. so sorry.

so back at home, my wireless internet is back and im BACK!!! today is a boring day, i decide to check out blogskin and i had no idea on how to change my blogskin and i just tried my best and the result was AMAZING!!! finally, i managed to change my blogskin without anyone's help. haHA!! was extremely contented to what i have achived. even though the blogskin was simple but i LOVE it!!! it was what i imaged my blog to be if i were to do it own my own!!! i manage to insert song. WOHOOO!!! Hope you enjoy it. i spent like 3 hours to change my blogskin. was WORTH IT!!!

anyway, tomorrow dearie exam, GAMBATTE NE!!!~ Dont worry too much, k. Im sure you studied enough. =)

so yeah, spent my day changing my blogskin. and now have to head off to aunts house.

Jah ne!!~

'random

2007-02-26T23:49:00.000+08:00

konnichiwa!!!

before i forgot, to my dearest friend UMAR, what is dicela??

1st and foremost i would like to show u my new mozilla firefox theme. Harley Davidson babeh!!!
Cool eh?? Check it out!!

Recently, i talked to dad about me taking motocycle license and he approve of it. i wanted to take car license but he suggested me to take motocycle license. whether or not he'd buy the motor is another story. all he said was "just take both license". WOHOO!!!~

so yea, im bored. have to admit it that holiday isnt what i'd expected. but hey, at least theres trainings to keep me company.

e latest event that i've been to is the silat ReTreat and here are some photos that i would like to share.

the selatra peeps!!!

the one in white scarf, shes the 1st person i made friends with when i joined this ig. and now shes graduating. how sad can that be. anyway, Thanx AINI for everything!!! the crazy guy with lolipop is my captain, yes he is. LOL!!!

the lady in the middle is the starter of this ig.if you are wondering what ig im in its Malay Cultural Group, Seni Silat.

this remarkable woman in the middle here is the best female fighter i've seen apart from Aini. graduating!! missing her now!!

the guy wearing brown on the furthest right is the guy that explains pocong as the chinese ghost. haHA!!! hes graduating soon. going to miss his lame jokes!!~

apart from having a farewell party for the seniors we, the february babies took the advantage of celebrating it together.. weee!!!~

some random photo.
Yours truly, atiqah in pink scarf and susu in black scarf...

more random photo.
Yours truly and nina!!!~

Finally, after a long day of camwhoring, we took like 2000++ photos in a day, we are getting tired and yes too tired to even smile at the camera.. LOL!!!

'time

2007-02-19T00:56:00.000+08:00

Time brings people together and can also tears people apart.

Its not because of how often you sms, call or even meet each other that tells you how much you love someone. it is how much you try to spent time with them despite your hectic life that tell you how much you love them.

Oh, I learnt new Malay words like “bermastautin” which means migrating and “jingga” which is the colour orange. Thanks to Raihan, Umar and Suhafana. LOL! *they loyar buruk*

Honestly, without trainings, I feel lonely. Been feeling down ever since school ended. Where are you, my happiness? I miss your presence. Please come back to me.

Been watching this malay movie, Cinta, for more than three times. It’s a great show. 5 love stories, one movie. Sounds complicated but actually all the stories amazingly linked and it doesn’t feel like 5 different stories on its own. Love happens not only when they’re young but it can happen when you’re old, love for a wife and love of a sister are portrayed in the movie.

Some quotes that I find meaningful in the movie:

“A wife is not someone you own but a gift from god”

“Sometimes, the person we love most is the hardest to love”

“Spending time with someone you love for a day is more meaningful than spending your whole lifetime with someone you don’t love”

To me, the second quote is the most meaningful. Sometimes you just find it hard to love someone you really, truly love. It is close to impossible to express it. Beyond words, feelings, actions, its exceptional.

To my happiness,

Where’d you do? Loneliness, bleeds me dry.

Please return. Been missing your presence.

'watever

2007-02-12T12:13:00.000+08:00

Konnichiwa!!!

1st and foremost, HAPPY 8th MONTHSARY for me and dearie!!! WooHoo.. Oh and Its susu anniversary too.. we hav e same anniversary but the timing different. mine was ard 4-5 plus pm whilst Susu was like at 2am. HaHA!!!!

February has been a wonderful month for me and my friends. I have spent most of my time with Jungle Inc and my IG (Interest Group aka CCA).

Im sure you are wondering who or what is Jungle Inc. It is basically a group of year 1 student in my IG. Since i am sooooo free now, i shall introduce all of them.

Yun - Baby Elephant
Nina - Panda
Susu - Chipmunk, Snake, Alligator, she has lots of names due to her ever changing behaviour
Atiqah - the lost Nyamuk, mosquito
Eza - Nyonya Cat

and finally yours truly,
Mary - Lil' Lamb

So yeah...

Anyway, last Thur, we didnt have training. We were having ReTreat for the finak year students, Didi, Qas, Fir, Aini, Shikin and Asri. Susu and I made cup cakes which RAWKS!!!! Dont believe me ryte? You can ask them yourself. Here are some pics which i can gather. We were asked to wear smart casual. It was fun!! almost everyone look great.

So that’s the happy part…

Its been awhile since I spent time with my loved ones. Been having trainings and would be home late. Didn’t have the time to communicate with them that much. So I spent last weekend with them. Skipped training and was at home with them. Watch TV, eat together and even went out together. Well, at least family it’s a little simple to make it up to them. Sunday, dad took off to Pakistan for business purposes. I’m going to miss him for the whole week.

I have nothing much to update. Basically, I’m not in my best condition. Been coughing for quite sometime. Didn’t went to the doctor as I think its just a minor cough. Ate my dad’s cough syrup and I’ll be fine. Avoid cold drinks and ice creams, even though it tempts me a lot. Like the saying goes, “All good things must wait.”

Valentine’s Day is nearing, to all those celebrating “Happy Valentine’s Day”.

A special dedication to my dear god brother, Bala, “Have fun!! May your Valentine be a memorable one!”

To all the guys out there, please treat your girlfriend like a lady. You wouldn’t believe how happy and appreciative they are towards you. If you are lucky, you might even see her blush. And not to forget, spent every second you have with her like its your last. You never know when you are going to see her again.

I’ll just end here. Take care.

“Missing you the most now”

“Oh simple thing, where have you gone…” – Keane, Somewhere only we know

Some pictures that I would like to share.

My new cousin, born on the 02.02.2007. The next day is my birthday!!! AND shes ADORABLE!!!

Oh and this is my new baby, RUSS!!! My anniversary gift from dearie!! Small and chubby!!!

'birthday!!!!

2007-02-03T21:40:00.000+08:00

(Sings Birthday song)

Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to MaRy!! Happy Birthday to you!!! WOHOOO!!!!

Thanks to these following people for the birthday wishes:

My family members

‘miyata

Berni

Umarie

Syaza

Joey

Atiqah

Nur

Syafiq

Adly

Susu

Suhafana

Valerie

Khai.D

Helmi

Nina

Yunz

Tapa

Kak Aisyah

Shikin

W26K Boys - especially Darc

Akila

Mumu

Syad

Rasuna

Asrap

Akmal

Kevin

Janice

Eza

Marcus

Cheryl

Ashik

and all the others that is not mentioned

P.s: I have short term memory. Forgive me

Here are the prezzies from my beloved!!!

From Dad, Cadbury – Milk Tray. Thanx Daddy!!! And he stills want to buy me a shoe or a jacket. Hmmm… Shall survey on it daddy-o!!!

From Mama, a ladies bag. Thanx Mummy!!!

From 1^st Bro, Emily the Strange wallet. Thanx Bro!!!

From 2^nd Bro, Kinder Surprise – Cars. Thanx Bro!!!

From little Bro, Vochelle – Gold Almonds. Thanx Bro!!!

From dearie, a small, soft pillow – Wanna.B close to you. Thanx dear!!!

Every Birthday wouldn’t be complete without a cake – Chocolate Truffle!!! Boo-Yah!!!

Spent the morning at Fig & Olive at Tampines Junction. Its some hidden restaurant near the business buildings opposite Century Square. It sells lots of western stuff, mainly spaghetti. I ate Mexican Chicken Sandwich. 1^st brother ate Roast Beef & Melted Cheese Sandwich. Mum, dad and little brother ate spaghetti.

It wasn’t so much of a Happy Birthday due to some circumstances but I managed to pull it off with the Birthday wishes from my dear friends. Love yah guys!!! Thanx for making my day.

Oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY to these following people for sharing the same birthday as me. 3^rd February Babies!!!

LAW CINDY – My W26K classmate

SYAHIDAH – My notorious cousin. Eh? When are we going out? Call me!!!

Apart from my birthday, I would like to wish HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY to the following people:

IRSYAD – 6^th February

RAIHAN – 8^th February

MAIMANAH – 10^th February

P.s: WEAR BLACK FOR REtreat on Thursday!!!! Recommendation from RAIHAN.

The day ended up with some photo editing done by Yours Truly. Was bored so you get my drift. Enjoy the pics. Dedicated to Selatra and Pi-chan!!!

'randomness

2007-01-30T09:10:00.000+08:00

Randomness:

Cheryl has gone crazy; I feel that she has contracted a disease call “mad lamb disease”. She should be vaccinated. Please help me find a good experience doctor that can cure her disease.

That was pure randomness. I just thought of it when I was doing my RJ.

Sun:

I turn on my old laptop because I wanted to transfer some files. Well, I came across a lot of bitter sweet memories while I was browsing through my files. I saw some old pictures that made me smile. I too found some old conversation that I saved for sentimental memories and it proved to be sentimental. All those words used and the conversation “we” had been indescribably. I would like to take this opportunity to thank “you” for all the things you’ve done and the time “we” spent together. Thank You.

* I changed my desktop background to this *

I miss being around you guys. =…)

IVP is nearing and I have my category. Im in duo artistic performance with Nina and Im in Class C Category for Olahraga, which is fighting. Im not sure if u want to fight. I just don’t have the confidence to do so. Apart from that, I do not posses the right skill and techniques yet.

Speaking of IVP, my training is on Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday. Its like 5 times a week and my dad sarcastically said “Why not the whole week?” Honestly, it wasn’t my fault that I was in Martial Arts. Sigh.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

'my wretchness

2007-01-23T08:34:00.000+08:00

konbanwa

Lately, i have been very upset with the grades im getting compared to last semester. Is it because of the working environment or is it just because i've change to become lazy or just cant be bothered. all i know is that im always looking forward to skipping school but always have nowhere in mind where to go or who to keng school with. im just upset with myself for having such a behaviour. well, the semester is ending and im trying hard to achieve at least a GPA of >3. *Insyaallah

My allergy is not even close to alleviate. i have avoid alot of food such as seafood and eggs but it seems that it gets "itchy-er" by the day. went to the doctor again and he said in some medical term which actually refers some kind of bug. @*&% i have a parasite on my body. he gave me this lotion to apply on and more medicine. *i feel like a sick child or am i really a sick child. =(
i wonder what made me this way. i was fine and this had to happened. at 1st it was urticaria which shocked the hell out of most people when i had a fever that reaches to 39.8 or 38.9 degree Celsius, all i know it was close to 40 degree Celsius. apart from that, the cause was partly due to emotional stress - i cant believe it. *i guess at times, i try so hard to overcome my obstacles that i dont realise im imperiling my well-being*

IVP is coming and i have no clue to what i want to do. honestly, i dont agree to sparring. i just had to because i just want to make my school proud and get medal that would be beneficial in the future. i like artistic but i just dont like doing solo. i prefer in groups or duo. i dont know what to do. further more, am i even choosen? i just dont have the commitment like i used to have. it just fades away as time passes. i just feel like im doing it for the sake of making a group of people happy. *why do i have this feelings?

Personal notes:
*sometimes i feel like staying in the hospital for i cant bear the infuriating itch*
*my interaction with others may be customary as i have be au feit with my façade*
*caring for people makes me happy*
*loving him makes me strong*
=...)

' ...

2007-01-19T21:11:00.000+08:00

science is a bitch...

that is what i think. seriously, i dont blame the problem crafter but its the facilitator. well, if you were to ask any of my classmates they'll say things like this too. she just tries so hard to be funny but actually we find it lame. whenever this happens she laughs to herself. *ULTIMATE LAMENESS* i shall not talk about her cause its ethically and morally wrong. *LOL*

lets see what happened...

oh, its been ages since i spar. i was punched at my chin and my pinky finger on my right hand hurts. it still hurts now. well, im not a fighter so dont blame me.

ok now is serious, on the 12 Jan 2007... it was...

MY 7th MONTHSARY!!!!
*we called it monthsary because anniversary is in years*

*pic of the day

its been awhile since i meet up with dearie. we can only meet once a week so everytime we meet is very special. yeah!~
and i want to say that our relationship is special!!!!~ XP

'come back

2007-01-08T08:40:00.001+08:00

Konnichiwa!!!

It’s been awhile since I update my blog. My home wireless internet was shut off. Now, I have to use cable modem. The problem is I don’t have the driver. -_-

Due to this, I have not been actively online. LOL!

Even if I’m in school, I wouldn’t have the time to update because I would be busy doing my work. LOL! *Hey, what do you expect if you want to succeed in the future* (‘*,)

The only way to update my blog is to write my entry in Microsoft Words and publish it when I’m in school. This is what I’m trying to do so that I would at least update my blog which is now collecting dust. LOL!

To all my dear readers, I’m sorry.

It will be a long entry so… here goes…

Let me re-cap on what had happen during the past few days. *Thinking… and Thinking… EUREKA!!!*

I just started working, well, it just the training. I’m working at SATS Inflight Cathering Centre 1.Its a company that works with Singapore Changi Airport. Suhafanah recommend it for me. Thanks to her, I’m employed. LOL! My job is to arrange the utensils for passengers to have a proper meal, “on air”, with the proper utensils. Not only equip with proper utensils but also the arrangement must be right. Its like in a high end restaurant whereby the folk, spoon and etc are place in order. My trainings were on the 6^th and 7^th Jan at 7am – 3pm, last Saturday and Sunday. The 1^st day at work was tiring. My back hurts because there is lots of bending down to place the equipped utensils in the container where it will be loaded to the airplane. 2^nd day was fine as I’m getting use to the work.

That Sunday, after my work training, I cane home and did some cleaning in my room. My dad wanted to make parquet flooring and I had to make sure I don’t obstruct the workers with my things. I cleared all my secondary school stuff and found some sweet memories. I found my class photo from secondary 1 all the way to secondary 4. I had to stop my cleaning and spent some time viewing the pictures. I too found pictures of my cooking for my Food & Nutrition O’ Level practical test. Looking at it, it made me hungry. *Hey, I’m a good cook alright.*

As I browse through, I found pictures of me & Nur at East Coast Park. LOL! We went there to enjoy our cookings right after the practical test. We were supposed to develop the photos of our cookings for our coursework but we went to East Coast Park and took pictures of ourselves. LOL! It was a GREAT MOMENT!!!

After the cleaning, I when to throw away the junk at the proper place. I had to go down and drag it to the BIG garbage centre, every neighbourhood has it. *At least I made some effort to dispose it properly, unlike some Singaporeans who blatantly dispose large furnisher at the lift landing. So inconsiderate!!!*

Oh yeah, I also found some of “Yours Truly” artwork. It was my secondary 1 and 2 artwork. Please spent some time to appreciate it. LOL!!!

' BIRTHDAYS & MORE BIRTHDAYS

2006-12-19T16:10:00.000+08:00

Konnichiwa!!!

Sorry for the late update. Here is a long one.

Basically, 4th December was my lil brother birthday, HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY & also Obo's birthday, HAPPY 18th BIRTHDaY!!!! Both shares the same day but different year. On the 9th was Fadhila's birthday. 10 was my mum's birthday. 21st Helmi's birthday and 26th Adly's birthday. WAH!!! SIAO!!!

I have yet to celebrate any except for my family member's birthdays.

Furthermore, its my 6th monthsary this month but sadly on the 12 December 2006, im in KL, Sunway Lagoon. In addition, on the 15-16 December, i have camp. This further delay our celebration. =....(

My KL trip was fine not that great as i had restriction and lots of complains from dad which i dont know why. Overall, it was fine. i bought lots of tshirts because i didnt know what else to buy. the most HAPPENING thing that i experience was FOOD!!! *come on who hates food unless if you are some i-wanna-die-starving-just-to-be-skinny morons*
It was breakfast at that time when i had the MOST DELICIOUS OMELETTE!!!! HONTONI SUBARASHI!!! of course it was delicious was cooked by a chef. The omelette had cheese and sliced hotdongs and i dont know what else was in it. i was enjoying every moment of it.

Move on to that, it was dinner and we went to eat seafood at port klang. OMG!!!!! IT WAS UTTERLY HEAVEN!!! i had the best seafood moment there. ate a SUPER LAARGE CRAB!!!! OMG!!! *drools*

Camp was fun!! Had muscle aches the following few days and my belated 6th Monthsary celebration was great!! Bought Bilabong shorts and edited a photo and put in a frame for him. I had the most CUTEST CAT ever!!!~ it was small, FAT and SUPER ADORABLE!!! Celebrated it at Ramen Ten. ate Tom Yum Soup Ramen which the prawn was SOOOO FRESH and BIG!!! He had Oyester Soup Ramen. Had a great time despite the late celebration!!!

tts all for now. im sure its a heck of a long entry.

To all,
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!
And to the Christians,
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

' proper blogging

2006-11-22T21:21:00.000+08:00

Konbanwa!!!

its been donkey's years i write something meaningful. all this while i've been uploading pics. well the purpose of it was for entertainment. i read people's blog, all words. kinda like dull like a ditchwater. *

ATTENTION SAMANTHA aka SADY. IF YOU ARE VISITING MY BLOG, FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE, PLEASE TAG!!!

Back to my story, haha. Today, i went home with Sady. she wanted to buy BEACH WEAR, not SWIMMING COSTUME. haha. somebody going to Sentosa with PRICE CHARMING!!!! Weeeeweeeet!!!went to Tampines Mall and Century Square and finally, she bought a shorts at Surf & Ski at Tampines Mall that cost $69.90!!! HAHAHA!!! Hell yeah!!! Its $69.90!!!

Oh yeah! Next month i want to buy OP tshirt and some blouse!!! Weee!!! Must save up!!!

Ohhh!!! And i'll be having lots of performance. Its good!!! MORE CE POINTS!!! Those who want to come down, i welcome you with open hand. i just despise those whose all hats, no cattle!!! *

thats all i have to update i guess. i have stm, cant remember much.

oh yea!! let me end with a picture that speaks a thousands words. soooo... HAPPY VIEWING!!!

- When MUMU goes brazen. HAHAHHA.. JOKING!!! Sorry MUMU!!!!

* not trying to relate to anyone.

' updates & CUTENESS

2006-11-20T15:22:00.000+08:00

Konbanwa!!!

Let me give you some update of some of my "History in the making"

Presenting the NEW IMAGE OF MUMU!!!

* Only the text is changed, the PHOTO still remains the same!!!

Lets move on. Will update on you guys soon on my "History in the making" project.

Update on my skill on CS. i played bot_difficulty 1. well im still a beginner, just updating on my skill. 31 kills, 4 deaths.. WEEE!!!

Basically, today, theres more pictures. Let me share with you some cuteness, PENGUINS, CHICKS, RABBIT!!!

*Awww.. sooo LAZY!!!

* Just plain randomness...

* This is super CUTE!!! Look at how small the chick is!!!!

*Awww.. Utterly CUTENESS!!!!! No doubt!!!

* FETISH ATTACK!!!!!

Okay!!! Well, yea, i get caught up with this kinda things. Soo yea!! will update real stuff soon!!!

Ja ne~~

' EVIL!!!!~

2006-11-13T20:51:00.000+08:00

konnichiwa!!

i feel sooooo GOOD!!! haha. it is fun disturbing MUMU!!! im sure you are wondering who is MUMU, no?

From Mary Had a LiL LamB production...

Presenting..

MUMU aka Daeng Rizam...

*taken from www.dadaeng.blogspot.com
P.S: Please ignore the statement " There's a HERO in ME" as it is not proven nor is there any facts that he is one.

Lets move along.

On saturday, i went out with my secondary school friends. it was alright as i was the only girl there. i didnt intend to go but someone was encouraging me and i decide to go. it was fun. half way through a group of RP girls (Pen's friend), joined us. it was a large group by then. made new friends.

*Me & Helmi

* Me & Fadila (My new friend). She thought she saw me somewhere but i have a feeling its not me after much attempts she tried to recall where she met me.

I made this. it was actually simple. just copy & paste their pictures and make it into one. well, its not that nice though but i really like it.

basically my week was alright except for some miscalculation that shocked the hell out of me. wasnt expecting it. so i guess thats all.

oyasuminasai!!!

' selfish *******

2006-11-08T20:17:00.000+08:00

have you ever wonder why some people prioritize friends more than family??? is it because of the geneation gap??? or you just cant be bothered about your family???

i call this type of people...

SELFISH

looking after own desires: concerned with your own interests, needs, and wishes while ignoring those of others

* i am not directing this to anyone in particular. if you feel offended, i dont care. just mind your own business and reflect on yourself. be a better person, living on earth is temporary. think about it.

' pixy

2006-11-02T20:26:00.000+08:00

konnichiwa!!

presenting the highness of crappiness ~ SaDy!!!

and her humble, kind, ever-caring best fren ~ MaRy!!! XP
Hahaha...

yesterday, i went home with her. we head to TM. just walk around and buy FOOD!! haHA!! we bought sushi. it was the small octupus. she told me that the octupus is super cute and she wonders how they swin in the sea. haHA!! after that we sat at the staircase near Fish & Co. and ate out sushi. we took lots of ridiculous pictures and i decide to show some of it.

basically, she likes to punch me at that point of time, which i dont know what i did wrong. haHA!! just because i spoil your plan to go home with "prince charming" doesnt give you the right to punch me you know. -_-
haHA!! jkjk

nevertheless, i want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for going home with me. you enlighten my day with your crappiness.

that is basically it. oh yah! just to do some promoting here. SaDy has wonderful creation of art piece.

*Lucifer or Angel??

That is what she describe it. she drew it out of her own imagination and creativity. dont mess with SaDy. she's one talented mademoiselle.

apart from that, i just bought a new mp3. a GREAT one. shall not talk about it much. i shall just show the pic.

Dozo, oki o tsukete!! =)

' appreciate

2006-10-29T19:25:00.000+08:00

konnichiwa

i realised something about life. its obvious that you cant go through what you went through today. it may be controversial but if you really look at it again, its never the same. for some of us, you may say that everyday is like a routine. but its actually not.

apart from the difference in the day, we are actually ageing even by a second. it may sound ridiculous but we are. we only feel it when our birthday's come. besides, the things you experience in school today may not be the same as tomorrow. sometimes its terrific, sometimes its terrible.

it is not much about ageing or experiencing the ups & downs of life. its more on appreciating it.
sometimes we took things for granted, thinking that we would live the next day. later then i realised, its not like it seems to be. one day, i would wake up being 66 years old or i wouldnt wake up at all. demo, appreaciate the significance of the day because tomorrow, it wouldnt be the same.

it is just a random entry. not referring to anyone. just a reflection on life. this may be a cliché but i find it meaningful, "Live life to the fullest"

Ja ne~

Listening to: The Last Song by X-Japan

' just a normal saturday

2006-10-28T15:12:00.000+08:00

konnichiwa!!!

its a Saturday yet im at home. Superb!!! i dont mind that much though. yesterday i went out till 10plus at night so its fair that i stay home this saturday.

watch DEATH NOTE with dear. Supposed to be with another 2 friends but they couldnt make due to last minute adjustment. Nevertheless, the show was G.R.E.A.T. i didnt expect it to be kind of funny and SUBARASHII!!! Compared to Kira & L, i honestly, no doubt prefer L, hes gorgeous and the biting of the thumb, reminds me of someone *the person im referring to should know who*

oh yah!! im supposed to talk about Cheryl. Haha.

Cheryl thought i was Chinese and she was disappointed to found out that im not. Haha.
*joking*

Cheryl loves me!!
*i hope you do, if not, i dont know what to say* =...(

Cheryl likes KAME.

Cheryl perfers Yamapi & Toma instead of Yamapi & Jin.
*i know you are jealous because Kame would be alone without Jin XP*

Cheryl - hysteric
*i may not know the significant of it*

Hmmm... what else...

i guess that is about it. see cheryl, im promoting you. Haha. i linked her, do visit her blog. =)

thats all about cheryl.

let me show you some pics. so it wouldnt be a boring entry.

This is my 2nd brother. He is trying to be funny. We were on the back of a truck when i snapped this.

Sady, mine, Yen ching shoes!!! Cool~

My new hp accessories. KAWAII~

' sibei sian

2006-10-19T21:25:00.000+08:00

私は科学を憎む。

If you are wondering what it means, GO FIND IT YOURSELF. there is internet to help you. sigh. physic?? do i look like i study it? sian!!!

For the past week, i wasnt performing like i always did. i wonder what when wrong. i guess, at times i stressed myself too much that i cant handle it myself.

suddenly i dont feel like watchin Princess Hours.its on youtube & im not in the mood to watch each part.the loading and the waiting kills me. it is very irritating when at times the youtube can load properly and hence, the show was cut. IRRITATING!!!

Jealousy attacks. Koda Kumi, a hottie!!! Hmm.

i admit that she is one hottie. i didnt want to put up other "photos" of her, if you know what i mean. if not then dont bother asking.

Oh, btw, this is my little nephew name... ermm (pretend i didnt say that)
Okay! i forgot what is his name.
=....(
Nevertheless, hes a very chubby little fella.

And these people are my MCG mates!! Wee!!
Oh yah, i wore baju kurong because i had this Iftar and i had to usher people and help here and there.

okay im off!!

oyasuminasai!!!

<3 dear,penguin eh?? ooppss!!
<3 'miyata

' welcome back

2006-10-10T15:36:00.000+08:00

Hey!!

i know its been awhile i never update. i've been busy with my school. now, i seldom use my laptop at home, except doing RJ. Compare my schedule before fasting month and now, i've been very busy DURING fasting month. Or is it that its fasting month and you'll get tired very tired easily.

nuffin much has happened. just that i am a month longer in terms of my relationship. i feel good coz up till now, we had not been arguing that much. still communcating like usual. learning to compromise and understand each other better. it felt good to be loved. you never know what you can accomplish and overcome.

nevertheless, nuffin much had happen. training and tutorin will keep me busy. im glad i serve a purpose to people whos in need. =)

anyway, i just finish watchin 1 litre of tears, a japanese drama. its a great drama. its a very sad show trying to tell us about the suffering of a teenage girl whos suffering from an incurable diesease.the pain she when through and that much courage she had overcoming her life. even the simplest thing like eating, she struggles as she would chocked on it if she takes big bites. her sickness is slow yet progressing. to put it in a harsh way, shes suffering a slow death. not inherited. the cause of it is unknown. she just had it, god's will. she had had no future. the sweetest part was a guy really likes her yet she cant repay back the love he gave her. all he did was support her till the end. how amazing can that be despite receiving a "love" letter from her saying that she doesnt want to meet him anymore. its a good drama. made me realise how important time is. not everyone have the privillage to live the next day without having to be any worst.

with that, i wpould really appreaciate if we all start to bein selfless and start caring for people, starting with our family. =)

oyasuminasai...

' end of week

2006-09-29T18:06:00.000+08:00

Konnichiwa!!!

its a FRIDAY!!! 2morrow,im going to break fast at my aunt's house. Wee!!!

anyway, this week its been a tough week for me. adapting to a new environment is not as easy as you think. its more than that. nevertheless, i manage to make new friends. my class is not like how w34g, thats obvious. during questioning & answering session, they never bombard questions to the presenting team, unlike w34g. Haha. they asked questions that they think they dont understand. at times non-presenting team mates will give suggestions to the answer, which was kind of interesting as our purpose of questioning is to clear our doubts and not score points for yourself and make others suffer the consequences. other than that, the environment is not as tense as most of us like to slack. Haha. i have not yet come to a class whereby theres students scoring average gpa 3.7 - 3.9. its going to be a real competition.

enough of school stuffs.i uploaded something cool in my friendster.Haha.Nothing better to do.

Check it Out:

Create Your Own!

Nothing much to say. Will update more in the near future. Take care people.

1 week, 7 days, 168 hours, 10080mins, 604800 secs...
Distance apart...
Minimum communication...

' pure laziness

2006-09-27T21:26:00.000+08:00

hi

i dont kind of get human beings. is it because of advancement that make us soooooo damn lazy. why cant we appreciate things that happen to us regardless if its negative or positive. why cant we make do of what we have and work on it. before blaming on fate, why not blame yourself first. see if you can make a difference. dont say "why cant i turn back time" instead "lets try work with what i have and make a difference". HUMANS... PURE LAZINESS... i am not trying to refer to anyone. if this entry hit you hard, start changing the way you think.

have i change, no? where is the nice MaRy? always forgiving even though its not her fault. always giving in. to tell you the truth, im still here. its just that i cant take indolent people.

' am i worrying too much

2006-09-25T17:23:00.000+08:00

hi

today, im unsure if is it really me or is it my mood swings. i wasnt in the right state of mind. i couldnt even do my work like how i use to do. am i slacking? is the problem that hard? i doubt so. sigh.i usually have confidence in any presentation my team does. but today, its like i lost faith and confidence in it.

i guess its my mood swing. shall not fret. i just wish for the best, to succeed in life.

happen that 3 doors down - Here Without You song was played while i was doing my things. i happened to recall all my past memories. what a day? sometimes, i wish i could make the right choices. then again, i wouldnt be who i am now.
yes, it hurts but to me, life is not about how you want it to be instead, its our actions that determines how it is. Fate, coincidence, luck do play a significant part. - MaRy

such a forlorn entry today.

There is always a reason behind every happenings. Chin up!!

Take care.

' enterprise grp

2006-09-23T17:31:00.000+08:00

Hey, Hey, Hey...

Yesterday, it was enterprise. My team consist of Ram, DARC, JOEY and RIZAM.

This is Darc. Hes my DA GE!! Hahaha.. One of the UNCLE in class. Haha. Jkjk. Hes into investment. From what i heard, its soo unlike him. People change, for the better and worst. He change for the better. Hes like sooo nice!! It was very cold and of course the STM me, i forgot to bring my jacket, he lend me his jacket. NICE RIGHT!! Haha. He wanted to pay for my lunch because i was broke. i insist and in the end he bought me a snack. Thanks DA GE!!!

This is Rizam. His name is Daeng Rizam. At first, i thought he was from BRUNEI!!! Haha. Asked his origin and found out his Singaporean. I guess its his ancestor or something that brings down the name. A very quiet guy. Never talk much with him.

JOEY. Haha. Shes a quiet girl. She never talk much, well its just our first time together so its normal. This girl is good at making nice presentation. She will make the text box with nice border. Cool!!

After school, when to meet dear (we will not be meeting in a month due to fasting month). Spent time with him, hoping it will last for a month. Im going to miss him.

Here is a silly photo of him. Haha. Makes me laugh as well as miss him more.

Thats all i have for today. Tomorrow, all the muslim will be fasting. I wish you well!!!

Take care people. =)

' 1st day of 2nd semester

2006-09-21T19:50:00.000+08:00

Bernice. Janice, Jadle, Ram

Here are some pics of them. Couldnt get all of them. Next time when i get to know them better, i would take pic with them.

Above pic: Ram
Below pic: Jadle
* I cant take the girls because they are beside me. i can only snap those infront of me.

My 1st group of people i know in W26k, apart from Darc and Vincent.

My 1st facilitator is Patricia Lee. She likes to tell us stories. Haha. But it was fun. Get to know what type of person she is.

My 1st module for the 2nd semester was Contemporary Issues in Culture & Aesthetics. Basically, its the follow up module of Communication.

LUNCH TIME!!

When down with Asal, Mariam and Sandra. Denise, Syafiq and 'Arifah met up with us after a while. Here are some of my lovely friends. Managed to take a few shots of them.

This is what i ate. Yong Tou Fu.(i guess the spelling is correct)
Haha. My 1st time eating it. Wee!!!

My group really bond well. We share jokes and do work at the same time. It was subarashii!!!

Now im kinda tired.

Take care people.

' blizzard, STM, school

2006-09-20T10:26:00.000+08:00

Ohayou!!

Yesterday, when out with dear eat ice cream,blizzard. Wee!! It was nice!! We bought oreo nut and brownie temptation. Freaking aunty, gave me only a lil brownie. I guess its not lil, its more of left-over. She didnt even do the oreo nut blizzard properly. Damn her!!

Anyway, I didnt know he was expecting it to be expensive. Sorry, next time if you want we can eat Anderson, Swensen & all the other nice ice cream. (Ben & Jerry)

Lets move on, shall not talk about ice cream. Fasting month coming. So looking forward to it.

I shall self declare myself today.

Im having SHORT TERM MEMORY.

Its official. Haha.

To think about it, its scary. I dont know. Just when you thought you havent tell someone something important, that someone already know because you already tell him before. Strange and wierd. Sigh.

Well, school starting tomorrow and we know our class. Im in W26K. Im in the same class as Vincent. Wee!! At least i have someone i know in my class. W26K, here i come. Haha.

' random

2006-09-18T23:33:00.000+08:00

konnichiwa

Have you ever wonder what people around you are doing right now? It doesnt matter if its your own friends or your loved ones, most importantly your family members. Have you ever cared about what they might be doing once they are out of your sight.

You never know.

Shall not talk about it further.

Anyway, i had the best training ever. Haha. My body is aching. From the thighs to stomach and the arms. Was kinda great. Too bad. Fasting month coming and i wish i could train more. Oh well, im glad they having training during fasting month. After training, we straight go for the food (break fast). Haha.

On fri, sat and sun, i was in a stay-at-home mood. Haha.

Fri, was supposed to tutor my cousin but decide to cancel it.

Sat, Mum & dad asked us (my siblings) for breakfast but i simply reject it. Oh yea, i cooked. It was my grandma recipe. Was super nice. Really!! I didnt know i still have my touch. *wink* (Hey, its been awhile i didnt cook) Opps =X

Sun, Mum & dad asked us for lunch and reject their offer again.

Today, MONDAY, went out with the ladies (Asal, Sandra, Pei Ying and of course the belated birthday lady, Eillie)

Sorry there was no pics. We took neoprints. Haha. Too bad i dont have a scanner. We had fun. Ate pasta, not at pastamania and when to look for Sandra and Eillie's stuff. I bought hide pic for dear. I hope he likes it. I just have to get his pink hair and guitar together because thats what made him legendary.

Well, thats all i have.

Take care people.

<3 dear

' result

2006-09-14T00:28:00.000+08:00

Konbanwa!!

Today, i viewed my result. When to school to change my password. I cant change it at home because i have to use the rpnet. I had difficulty changing my password. With patience, i manage to change it. Haha. Hey, dont blame me, its difficult coming up with a password that meets the requirements.

Im contented with my result. I work hard and received fulfilling result. I was expecting it, so i guess my effort paid off. Wee!!

I made a bet with dear. I told him i would obtain at least an average gpa less than 3.3 while he said i would obtain higher than that. Well, somebody won the bet. Hehe.
P.S: Blizzard ice cream?? XP

Well, im just going to work hard for the next 2 years. Hoping to pass with distinction. Positive attitude and perseverance. =)

Some motivation to keep me going. GAMBATTE!!

Anyway, im kinda bored so i want to post some pictures. Enjoy!!

Meet my penguin. It is bigger than a tissue box!! Its the best birthday gift from my brother. Very fluffy!! I sleep with it. Its sooooo comfortable. Oppss!! I shall not compliment it further. XP

Hahahahhaah.. Since i put up my fluffy, fat penguin, i shall put this small, cute pikachu. Haha. ADORE IT!! KAWAII!!!

Shall end here.
Take care people.

Oyasuminasai!! - Gd Night!! =)

' 3rd monthsary

2006-09-12T22:35:00.000+08:00

Wee!!

Happy 3rd Monthsary with anata!!

Hoping its 3 years la.. Haha..

Nevermind. Here are some pictures.

US!! Weee!!

After eating our lunch, we went to go to this shop where all the goods are imported from Japan.

As you can read, this is Milk Chocolate but this is Dark Chocolate.

And this is White Chocolate. The packaging colour differentiate it.

After that, we have to make our way to dear's school. Hes schooling. And i cant believe im schooling next week. Time passes so fast.

I took bus, no.12, home.

I had a good sleep. Haha.

The time taking bus and MRT is the same. Furthemore, i get to sit rather than stand if im taking MRT.So, im taking bus the next time. And its cheaper as im using concession. Haha. Cheapo! Dont blame me. The bus fair is increasing.

I think I will end here. Just happy i spent my day with dear.

Ja Ne~

' moon child

2006-09-11T01:03:00.000+08:00

Moon Child.

The name of this movie i viewed just awhile ago. Theres like element of brotherly love and pure friendship. Its not like any normal movie wherby its always about boy meets girl, touchy love messages and a great ending whereby every girl would cry.Haha.

I never thought this movie was SUBARASHII!!!

I was so touched by how much they went through. All the fightings, killings, blood shed just to survive.

This is the part i teared the most. I cant help it!! Why must he end his life here? He still has his daughter to take care of. He can still start fresh. Then again, after much thinking, i realise he cant. Hes an orphan, i guess he doesnt have any education. How can he get a decent job to support his daughter and himself. All he can do is become a mafia.

He lost his friends, brothers and wife.How sad can he be. *sigh*

I cant help but teared for awhile after the show. I really recommend you to watch this movie.

I guess i will end here.

Oyasuminasai!!

' guys

2006-09-10T01:08:00.000+08:00

Hey!! Ohayou Gozaimasu!!!

Well, i cant sleep. I just had to blog. Its about the things we,girls, dont really realise its significant.

I just want you, girls, to read this. Its about what guys think.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
Take Advantage of the mood im in.
LET US PAY FOR YOU!
DON'T "FEEL BAD"
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say "thank you."

You don't have to get dressed up for us. If we're going out with you in the first place, youdon't have to feel the need to wear the shortestskirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own. We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT youare. honestly, a girl looks more beautiful whenshe's just in a tshirt and shorts, not all dolled up.

Whatever happened to theword "handsome"/"beautiful" I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted mewith "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/ stud/cutie/sexy" or whatever else you can think of.

After reading it, i realised something. Guys, they are wonderful. Only a certain few i mean. Its very hard to find this type of guys. All so gentlemanly. Fortunately, i found mine. Im very proud to be with him.

Well, basically, we girls always go

" HES HOT!! HES SEXY!! HES HANDSOME!! ... "

about other guys but we dont usually say these words to our guy.

Theres no explaination to this, i guess. To me, it just happened that we, girls, look at other guys especially good looking actors/singers, and forget about the simple little things our guy does, like saying "i love you". We simply forget it. I mean, tell me, is there any actors/singers, says that he loves you directly to you with full sincererity? (it only happens if you are lucky) Well, exclude the times when they try to say "I LOVE YOU" in different languages or in a very convincing tone just to please us,girls so they would gain support in order for them to get paid (after all, they are entertainers). Other than that, i doubt so.

All i want to say is just be greatful to your loved ones. Treat every relationship like its the last. Love them like theres no tomorrow. You never know what might happen tomorrow.

<3 dear =)

' my 1st entry

2006-09-08T10:38:00.000+08:00

Konnichiwa!!

My blog is finally done. Credits to Nur for doing my blogskin. Im sorry i dont know nuts about this internet thing. All i care about are things that are related to my future. Since Nur asked me to create a blog and offered her help, why not. Btw Nur, NICE LAYOUT!!! I LIKE IT!!! Really appreciate your effort. =)

Apart from her, i would like to thank miyata for helping me choose my blog address. Haha. Im very selective about it. Haha. It took me like a few days to come up with it. Thanks dear!!

Haha. I realised something, today's entry is basically thanking people for their effort. Haha.

Okay. Now, im wondering if i should let people read my blog. I kinda find it personal. Let me figure it out.

Anyway, today my dad is coming home from Indonesia. I heard he bought stuff for us. He bought my brothers tshirts or some racing jacket or what and he bought me either a Bilabong or Ripcurl bag. Weee!!! Im sooooooooo Happy!!!

Yesterday I came across lots of nice GIF images.

Im an

Haha. Nice ryte?

Oh yea!! This is what my dad bought for me!! A Ripcurl Laptop bag. Wee!!

Testing 1,2,3

2006-09-07T11:17:00.000+08:00

Lets see which font is the best.

Lets see which font is the best.

Lets see which font is the best.

Lets see which font is the best.

Lets see which font is the best.

Lets see which font is the best.

Lets see which font is the best.

Okay!!
I have decide to use this font.

Lets test my photo.

This guy here, is my man.

Hes the best thing that happened to me.

Always there for me when I need him.

Cant say much later he paisey. Haha.

Okay. This is just extras. Hehe. Sorry dear. Can't help it.

Hes name is Yamashita Tomohisa.

Hes my favourite idol.

I like him.

Haha. Okay. Enough of him. Later someone I merajuk.

Okay! Up next is Kamenashi Kazuya.

I hope I spell his name correctly.

I don't know why I like him.

I guess I like his voice and his acting skill in Nobuta Wo Produce.

Finally, its Akanishi Jin.

I like him because hes gorgeous. Haha.

I only find out about him because his Yamapi's best bud.

So bacically, anything to do with Yamapi , I like. Haha.

Okay! Im done with pictures.

Cant help it. I like this pic. I dont know why. This is me and Eza. We did this charity golf at NSRCC. I dont know what it stands but its at Changi.

Wee!!

Done.